Hey guys,

I have really intense needle and surgery fears which are really conflicting with me at the moment as I'm hoping to get on T in the future, as well as getting top surgery, etc....Does anyone else have these fears? How do you cope? Anyone ever been able to overcome them? Please tell me how you did it! Lol. I hate blood, bruises, pain, needles...I just see this all getting in the way of my transition and my fears are intense enough for me to keep getting mega freaked out and be like, it's okay I can ignore the transgender feelings - well honestly, I can't ignore them. Who can? But, god, my phobias are really getting to me. I have no idea how to get over these. I practically faint and have intense pain after a blood test - if I'm like this after a blood test, I can only imagine having to inject myself with T. Any advice, tips, etc will be highly appreciated!!

Sorry if my post is all jumbled up and not making much sense - just imagining needles and surgery gets me all weird!!

Thanks,

Jack

You can get T without ussing a needle. There are gels, creams, patches and pills. (avoid the pills, bad for the internal organs)

As for surgery fears....
You don't have any surgeries coming up in the imediate future. So you have no need to panic.
I would sugest that you do some meditation and self focus. Envision what the surgeries will mean for you in the long term. Focus on what it will bring you.
Also desensitise yourself by watching programs that show surgeries being preformed. Learn what it is they do in the surgery theater. I wager that a large part of the fear is the fear of the unknown.

I have an issue with giving myself an injection, so I have my spouse do it for me. That way I just look away and it gets done. I just feel a sting for a few seconds and it is done.
(although I have no issue giving my sweety her T shot when ze needs one)

I can kind of relate to you here.  Now I don't have a fear of needles and surgeries, but I kind of have a fear type thing of being naked in front of someone, particularly being inspected by doctors.  And I really want surgeries some day in the future, so I'm trying to figure out how I can get over that long enough to get my surgeries.
And I just really don't know.  I'm sorry I don't have an answer for you.

For me, I think I'm going to just keep focusing on how badly I want surgery.  And I would like to try with start with something small.  for example, I think I could stand being topless much more than bottomless, so getting top surgery first would push me a little bit.  It'd still be very uncomfortable, but if I can stand that, maybe I can stand bottom surgery.
I don't know if there's anything small you could start working with yourself on to built you up to where you can stand the harder stuff.

Have you ever had surgery before? If you haven't I can see why you're worried.

I have to say out of all my surgeries I've had, top surgery was a breeze. I was in and out the same day and healing was easy. It wasn't bad at all.

I've been awake for eye retinal reattachment surgery and even that wasn't so bad. So in comparison it was nothing.

As for T, I hate needles and always get my girlfriend or a nurse to inject them. If you get them in the lower back area it's practically painless.

But against what Cynthia said, I can never watch videos of how they do surgeries. I never want to know what they are going to do to me, just gas me and do it already.