I've thought about it many times. Usually I don't get further than a passing thought because I don't want to let the haters out there win. They'd love for me to do their dirty work for them. But sometimes a person just wants all the pain to stop... Sometimes while going down the highway at high speed the trees along the side of the road look mighty inviting... Just a quick yank on the wheel and it would be over in seconds...

It isn't exclusively because of this condition, but when added to having no money, no job, poor health, and no friends within hundreds of miles, it gets to be more than a person can handle. I've seen people less qualified than me given jobs over me (even one who failed the drug test), watched the friends I did have here move away to other things while I'm left behind with nothing. Denied unemployment because working for the university you attended doesn't count "under Florida law", denied Medicaid because the SSA thinks this body is not disabled (let's see any of them live in it for a day). I know the economy is crap now, but it is very difficult to believe that these things are not related to hate based on this condition.