Lately I've been dealing with some frustration. No real life-threatening complaints or whatever so I'm grateful for that but just general frustrating things. I got low grades in school so I'm on academic probation and if I don't pass my current classes I'll have to pay for some classes before I can get financial aid again which I really can't afford so I'm doing my best but the stress isn't helping.

To top that off there is new management at my work and I feel like one of the new managers really hates me. She's cold towards me and I just wish I knew what I did. I don't much fit in with the people I work with so I have two people who really understand me but they don't work a whole lot which means I'm isolated on my bus for 6 hours everyday and then during work I don't really talk and the silence is starting to upset me a little.

My friend is going through a break up after 2 years and she's upset and really I'm just finally dealing with the fact that it's been 11 months since I came home to an empty apartment and had to move back in with my mom.

I keep getting called female at work and I know it's because of my chest but I don't know what to do to change that, my binder already is tight enough to cause pain after a few hours of binding but that I will live with. My grandma keeps outing me when I go anywhere with her but since I don't have a way to transport groceries I have to shop with her and my mom so I have to be around her then.

To top it all off I really like this girl at work.... she's not single and not interested. Well, maybe would be interested if she was single and younger (only a small age difference but big maturity difference). Logically I know, I have no car, no apartment, and nothing to offer so that doesn't bother me much but god do I make an idiot out of myself every time I'm near her. Plus work keeps writing my legal name on the list that everyone sees and the office people keep telling the people I work with that day, that Amanda will be with them for the day and it just really sucks. Thousands of people come through my work every day and 80 out of 100 it seems like call me female 10 don't use gender and the other ten call me male. While I'm grateful for the last ten it's just kinda grrrr ya know?

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80 out of 100? Wow. that's kind of surprising. Is your female name on your nametag or something? Your avatar looks very male.

Thanks Forum Admin my nametag says Drew, I was thinking of maybe asking if it could say Andrew because at the time I hadn't realized that Drew is a unisex name

Sorry man, sounds like a lot of stress.  Wish I could help.   But this too will pass.

If people see you and ask "You're 'Amanda'?", say "Yeah, I'm 'A Man, Duh'."

Jokejokepun.

I send you hugs!  You're going through a lot right now, and thanks for telling us about it and getting it off your chest.  We're here for you!

And it IS annoying when people don't use the right pronouns, right?!  I hate it when I'm clearly dressed as Sage and some people STILL refer to me as "Shelbi," or "she," or "her"!     Especially when Sage looks visibly male and expresses (very politely) that it upsets him.  (Unfortunately Sage still has a girly voice, but I'm working on that.)  I mean, they don't do it to be mean, it's clearly by accident, but still...

I may be androgynous and not FtM, but I feel your pain!