This is long and rant-ish, but input is still welcome and appreciated. =)
Ugh, there doesn't seem to ANY way to stop them (periods) without some kind of potentially health-hazardous side effects or paying way too much money. It just makes me so mad because stopping my menstrual cycle is one of the only serious changes I absolutely need to make for myself for the next ten years or so.
So, from what I've read of some transguys' accounts of "the cycle," I feel at least a little bit lucky, lol. I've read about a lot of transguys who have to deal with extremely heavy periods, crippling pain, sickness and all kinds of other nightmares when they're "on the rag," and I really feel for and have respect for transguys who have to go through that on a monthly basis. However, my period is pretty light-to-regular, with minor bloating and discomfort, and no pain that can't be stopped with a couple Advils. At least, that's how things are now (I'm 17, almost 18), but who knows how things will be in the future. Anyway, my periods aren't a complete nightmare for me, but they're still a source of extreme dysphoria and it's still upsetting and frustrating when I get it - even though it doesn't really "disable" me, I just feel really down and depressed when I get it, and I don't feel like doing much at all.
The two main sources of physical dysphoria, for me, are my chest and my periods. These are both things that I really don't wanna have to deal with for much longer and want to change as soon as possible. With my parents' help, I'm looking into top surgery soon, so hopefully I'll have that part covered. Still, there are the periods. From what I've read, there are four different ways I've seen various transguys use to stop their periods: T, hysterectomy, birth control, and hormone blockers. Unfortunately, I seem to have found extreme negatives for each option.
T - Not to sound vain as hell or anything, but apparently guys who go on T risk balding earlier than the average guy, especially if they're genetically predisposed to it (my dad is 47 and isn't balding, but with the men on my mom's side there is some considerable Baldness). I have no idea if I'll end up balding or not, and I certainly won't mind balding in my 40s and 50s, but I really don't want to lose my hair at 20. Aside from that rather stupid reason, T also apparently can do serious damage to the female reproductive organs, and I don't wanna be dealing with ovarian cysts and tumors, etc. either.
Birth control - Stops periods, but also comes with a lot of health risks, and further feminizes the body, which definitely isn't something I want.
Hormone blockers - apparently when used long-term on people who have already gone through puberty, hormone blockers basically induce early menopause, which can mean osteoporosis and heart problems and ->-bleeped-<-, and just like I don't want to go bald at 20, I don't want to be breaking my hip at 20 just because I ran into a wall, lmao. I mean come on, I'll have plenty of time to do that when I'm 60.
Hysterectomy - ok, so basically if a woman with extensive damage to her uterus needs a hysterectomy, it can cost 4000 dollars or less (or be entirely covered by health insurance), but if one of us transguys needs a hysterectomy to prevent suicide-and-severe-depression-inducing dysphoria, the price is hiked up to insane numbers (20 thousand dollars?! really?) just because it's "elective surgery." I won't go into how much that pisses me off, but yeah, this option is totally unrealistic at the moment too.
I dunno, I know I've been going on for way too long, but I am just so sick of periods and the dysphoria that comes with them. I wish there could be a simple way to put an end to them, but it just seems like there's no way you can stop periods and just be completely satisfied with the results - there just has to be a catch for everything and it's so incredibly frustrating and depressing.
I don't know exactly what I'm asking here, I kind of just wanted to vent about The Frustration a bit and maybe someone will get where I'm Comin' From. I think I'm gonna talk to my gender therapist about my options but i don't really know what that will accomplish. What do you guys think is the best option, between T/birth control/blockers? Do you think maybe going on a low dose of T will cause periods to stop but won't induce balding? I guess maybe I could just get over it and accept that if I'm going to have male hormones in my body, I can deal with the male side effects, but even for really young bio-guys early balding is kind of upsetting. So I don't know exactly.