I just need to vent some, girl friends.

I recently moved way out away from any city. I have not been with a man in so long I feel just terrible. What I would give to have a straight man to be with to make happy & be his woman. Before I lived in cities where I could at least go to a gay bar & at least have men hit on me or maybe pick a nice one to make happy. I'm dressed nice & feel very nice but I just do not feel like much of a woman without a man. I've always felt my best when I was very feminine & when men were callling me for a date. I loved it when my date showed up at my front door. That was just great.

Anyway just frustrated. I'm waiting to meet Monday with new therapist for better HRT I hope. I'll be so glad when I finally resume HRT. I know the pleasant feelings, I was on HRT before several times & I felt great, relaxed, confident, sexy dating some nice straight men, being my feminine self completely, I was so happy then. But I had to stop for $ reasons but now moved, settled & $ is OK & I so want to return to normal.

Somehow I must find a way to meet men. I guess I'll place an ad in one of the TS websites & hope I do not get hurt by some creep. I live in North Alabama & there are plenty of creeps here but something has to give. I cannot take being so lonely.

Anyway, girl friends I just needed to vent some, I'd cry if would help.

Francis

It sux when there is no place to go.  Especially places you feel safe.  Maybe it is time to plan a weekend away.  Spend a couple of days in a motel near some clubs.

I  feel better, went shoping in my little town dressed nice, thrift stores, dress stores. Met a lot of really nice new women to be fiends with, we had fun. I also let them know I was open to quietly date in this area if they knew any single men that might be interested. Some did so maybe I might have a date soon with a man. They know I'm pre op so no trouble with any man they might suggest.

It was a very good day.

Wow honey - a good day, - you could say that again!

I'm leaning some now, or what?

It would not cross my mind to ask those females in the thrift store (rest are all African/Blacks) to mention I'm open to date.
I'd be too scared. Of what? Maybe to loose my (perceived) stealth aura?
Am I a snob? I rather think SA society is a lot more Victorian then your place. If I was approached... oh, yes, thank you, why not.
But Madam Axelle stepping out available to date... good one, hm.

Well done! Please keep us posted.

Impressed,
Axelle

I love those women. They love to talk & I'm one of them. None are very pretty but nice women. I'm not real pretty but pretier than some of them & also a nice woman. My little town is a nice town. I will meet more of them & hopefuly be friends for life. They all know men that might be excited interested in my current type of woman.

There is Merle Norman nice shop in this town. I'm going there to make fiends with the owner & have some makeup advise. That will be cool to just let them do what they think for my face, try lots of colors, shades, makeup, etc...

I'll be here the rest of my life, I have to adjust.

I feel confident & good early this Sunday morning. Meeting tomorrow with new therapist to hopefully resume HRT without too much fan fair. I drafted & signed a 2-3 page overview of my life & rather obvious reasons for her HRT approval letter without great delay I trust. It may take a while before actual prescription however I'm relaxed & determined.

Have good Sunday all girl friends.

Francis

Sounds like it's looking good Francis.  If you have the sort of small town where people support each other and rally round, rather than gossip and snipe, then you have found yourself a gem.  They have always existed but are few and far between anywhere.

Hope it all goes well.  It sounds like you have been able to show your friends that a transwoman is just a woman with a slightly different medical history. 

I might have a different orientation but know what you mean about wanting to have someone to snuggle up to. One day soon I hope.

Go get 'em girl!

Karen.

Karen,

Thanks for your nice words. I just hope all goes well tomorrow to resume HRT. I've been trying for over a month to find a decent therapist & or physician to try & return to normal.

It's nice little town like most I guess. A big walmart close by. I support all the little dress shops & boutiques & thrift stores & since I'm a woman at heart I love to talk & gossip with nice women. After things settle some I hope to be the local Merle Norman Salons best customer. That will be so cool to go in, relax & let them pamper me, facial, makeup, nails, pedicure to be all pink & pretty for maybe a date again with a new man. I always liked to pamper myself before a blind date with a new man. Sometimes that was more fun than the date/man.

Good luck your way in the love department, it sounds like you are another girl with short fingernails, but that's OK.

Francis

I know what you mean about the pampering. ( Maybe the girls there will have an idea where you might meet a Southern Gentleman, instead of a walking waste of skin.)
So far I have just had the usual hand moisturiser massage during a manicure, but that was a nice touch.   I have found a nice place in the city which I am moving too, so will be giving "the works" a try.
How did the HRT go?  I can't imagine going back to life without it. I just feel content all the time, no nervous anxiety simmering away in the background.
Hey, for every one of us " L word" fans, just means one more guy loose for you girls! 

Karen.

Karen, Thanks & good luck your new move. New therapist in Huntsville was great, nice woman, she will gladly write my HRT letter on our third visit. Very moderate cost. She has around 25 MTF clients & all are doing well, several well past GRS & enjoying nice normal lives. She was from Australia & England. I will enjoy working with her so maybe I can also have a nice life post my GRS one day.