I havnt been here for sometime. My wife left me with outstanding bill and took about three month rent and left. It has been hard but things have change for the better. Many more friends and family know. I am seekn theripy near by. After she left I went to salvation army and goodwill found a lot of great cloths. I have dressed in public most just seem confused about whether I am a man or a woman. I am not lookn to make people happy anymore. I am who I am and if you pass me on the street at least you know I am here now. If you ask me a question aboutme I will answer it.

I got my face waxed four days ago. The young girl asked me why I was getting my face waxed. I said to her, I am transitioning from male to female. It changed how she viewed me. She shared beauty secrets with me and we talked about personal stuff together. It was great that she did that for me. I could tell she wanted to talk more with me. I my not look like the woman that I want to be but I am the woman that I am at the present. Mixed between the man that I was and the woman that I am becoming. I am learning that it was not everyone else that kept me from being me it was me the whole time. I made my own gender prison. Formed by the what if, what will and so on..

Hello Jainie and welcome back.
Sorry to hear that your wife left you.

QuoteI am learning that it was not everyone else that kept me from being me it was me the whole time. I made my own gender prison. Formed by the what if, what will and so on..

I so agree, we do make our own prisons out of fear.
Jainie you are a women it's just that your body has some brith defects.
So glad to hear from you again hon.
Jillieann

You sure did say allot with that one.

Yeah, I did. The more I realize that I am not a prisoner but a free woman. I realize that I made myself aloner thinking that would help me, but I took something from myself. I am out going woman and the need to express has always been there. I like talking I needed to get that out sothe air would be clear. She talked about things that a woman does not share a man. Even she was in a prison made from fear. I realized that if she could open up like she did there is hope. She asked me if she could post my before and after pics of my face being waxed. I felt a sense honor for some reason.

Quote from: Beth Andrea on August 07, 2011, 10:20:54 PM
Wow, congratulations! You're an inspiration to me, and I"m sure to others as well!

if it took me 37 years to accept myself for who I am how much time should I give others to accept me. She accepted me for who I am before I told her the truth. That is a powerful thing to me. I care more about what she thinks than what I think she thinks. What I thought was keeping me a prisoner. What she thought made feel evenmore free.

Sorry your marriage had to crash and burn, but you gave it your best shot Jainie.  Glad to see you are sorting things out now. 
Also great to hear of your experience while having your face waxed.  (You are braver than I am doing that!)
I had a similar reaction from both the girl who does my back waxing, and my hairdresser.  It really made my day to be accepted as a woman and be included in all the goss.
Karen.