Quote from: Ryan J on August 07, 2011, 10:05:40 AMIt's really, really hard to believe that out of how many billions of people, YOU are one of the few who have to endure this dysphoria and confusion.

I think you hit the nail on the head. This is exactly what I think when I'm in doubt. I just want to have a normal life but I can't have it without transitioning and being who I am, and that's going to be a hard process. I wish it would just take a day to physically transition and I could be myself without all the trouble.

Quote from: Julie Marie on August 07, 2011, 10:09:00 AM
Yes.  And I fooled everybody, including me.

Me too, it was really awful, and since I fooled myself into believing, I think that's why I'm having a hard time coping with that period in my life.

QuoteYes.  And I fooled everybody, including me.

Me too!
For over 50 years
It didn't work for me, but everyone else seemed happy with it.
Now I am happy and other are not.

Yes, I did. I use to just cross dress, and was happy doing so. But hidding it was causing issues and I was asking in a round about way to my family what they thought of transgender people, and I was told they were mental people and every negitive thing in the book. So I tried to stop, and tossed all my girls clothes away, and gave my best to be the sex I was born........and it nearly destroyed me. I never hated myself more then when I tried to be the person that I thought people wanted me to be. It was a long round coming back from that low, but I dug my way out and just tried to be myself, and life has got better ever since.

Yup, I was shoving it down, to the point where I convinced myself. I would've been living a lie, now I feel much more mentally eased.

  Yes, for the adult portion of my 58 years!  I had enough!  HRT was my 58th birthday gift. 
  Joelene