Hey everyone it has been awhile. Been real busy but after today I've found a little time to come on here and vent.
Today was horrible.
I didn't want to go to school so I told my mom I'd like to stay home and if not she can just wake me up and I'll go.
I ended up going.
The minute I walk in the doors this kid looks at me then says something to someone, my best friend hits him, and then the girl standing there starts staring at me.
I knew he said something about me and I asked my best friend if he did and she said yes. She wouldn't tell me what he said though...
People started walking over to him and after about 2 minutes there was about 20 people over there.
I found out he was telling people I used to be a girl.
All the people were just staring at me and laughing.
I felt like dying.
I left and didn't come back all day.
I don't know what to do. I have to go back there tomorrow and I'm so scared...after watchin "Boys Don't Cry" I've been kinda scared of what could happen to me.
I don't want to get made fun of by all these people I don't even know...
I'm scared...
I don't know what to do.

I hope everyone else is doing great though.

People can be cruel. But, look on the bright side, they said USED to be a girl?

I know rumors can be tough, but screw them. I mean, you are what you are and you can't change it. Usually, people make fun of, or start rumors, or gossip about anyone who goes against the "norms" of society. I am assuming you are in high school. Image is every thing in high school. After you graduate, you will most likely rarely/never see 95% of the people ever again, unless you continue to live in the same city (and they do too)?

Teenagers are cruel but what gets me through high school is just taking it day by day and realizing that soon, I won't have to deal with these ignorant people anymore. After high school, nobody will know that you used to be a "girl." All of the new people you will meet in life, will know you as the man you really are.

Hope I helped. PM me k? I'm a fellow FTM student just trying to cope with my ignorant society as well.

-Brady-

Jack;

It's tough to face your tormentors.  I don't know of any 'cheat sheet' on how to do it, no magic formula that works every time.  Each situation is different.

Your Mileage May Vary, but I've had the best luck with cultivating people who know I wasn't born female, yet accept me as a person.  With a few people on 'Team Karen', I put up with the stares and snickers.  And I do put up with them, and not react to them.

I do fear that I might find myself alone against one or more intent on harming me for what I am and what I'm doing.  Like any good girl, I zealously avoid situations and places where I might encounter said bigots alone and unprotected.

Jack, don't get cocky.  Stay safe.

But for me, my transition is a way to face those who torment me for my differentness and become/be empowered.

I hope that this in some way helps.

Karen

Jack,  it breaks my heart to see this.  But I'm afraid it's unavoidable in the cruel society we live in.  There is no place immune to that kind of insensitivity. 

It took me many years to get it through my head that my own sense of self-worth is not based on what any other person thinks of me.  Rather, it is based on what I believe about myself.  This isn't the stupid self-esteem movement, it is just common sense.  Especially when you are different, there will always be someone who does not like you.  That's one of the few constants in this life.

There is no better time to learn to deal with that than early on in years, like you are now.  If you do not, your hurt and anger will turn inward.  This is basically depression, and you are in for years of unnecessary grief.

Swiss psychologist Carl Jung said that if you don't know who you are, the world will tell you.  I don't want to see that happen to you, Jack, because you will not like the world's answer.

So who is Jack?  Once you decide, anyone who doesn't agree......just don't know Jack!  (Sorry I couldn't resist.)

Best of luck to you!
Kristi

Transitioning at school makes you an immensly brave person.
Teenagers are cruel. You may well be in for some verbal abuse from these bigots, but you mentioned that you have a best freind there, so at least you won't have to endure it alone. Just try to ignore them as much as you can.
Sorry I don't really have any other suggestions.

I really hope things turn out okay.

You're very brave. I'm currently full-time male at my college and probably only get away with it because it's so liberal. I never finished high school, though for the same reasons you're facing. This week I'm going to talk to some people from a few schools to see if I can go back and finish my diploma so I may go back to facing what you are right now.

Hang in there man, it's really rough I know. But stay safe. Don't take risks.

Jack-
This post hasn't been touched on in a while, but I can relate all too well.

Until about 7th grade, kids just percieved me as a "tomboy". I had a lot of friends, and no one thought anything different. 7th grade, I started cutting my hair shorter and shorter. A couple close friends kind of new what was going on, and rumors started lightly in junior high.

By the time I hit high school in 9th grade. There were mass rumors all around school. Luckily I had a senior brother on the football team, who was a big job, who always looked out for me. Along with all his buddies. I had kids write lesbian across my locker, I didn't even dare use the female bathroom, constintly hearing whispers when I walk by. And half the kids doing it were my childhood friends. It hurt, a lot.

I was grateful enough to have a group of friends who always looked out for me. As your friend seemed to do. Kids can be cruel, try and hold your head high, high school sucks for transitioning.

I was grateful enough to transfer schools to a big city. Where I enrolled as a male, and only the principal and my social worker knew the deal. I can't even explain to you how much of a relief it was. Hang in there bud, things won't always be this hard.

Breaks my heart reading this. I think the important thing to remember is that high school isn't that important. You'll graduate and then wonder what the big deal was. Even if you're outed, it's not the end of the world. I had someone in college out me to my girlfriend, and she stuck with me, even though she's conservative and inexperienced with this stuff.

Hope you feel better soon. Wish I could come over there and beat that guy up for you.

Why weren't you out to her in the first place? Seems like you should be more forthcoming in such an intimate relationship. Unless you two were just starting to get to know eachother...I guess. I'd feel pretty awkward if I had a girlfriend who didn't know me as trans.

Good heavens.

I'm the punked out goth girl with the boots and the scary eyeshadow, I generally just shoot them a withering glare, then pay them no mind afterwards.  I haven't had a situation like this yet, mostly because I'm not quite me in public yet, but if I do, I imagine I'll just let it roll off my back.  To Hell with those morons, dear.  Just do what I do!  Carve out your own little world inside your head and live there while you're at school.  Only thing that's important is the classes anyways.

Stay sharp.  They're beyond stupid.  Not worth your time.

~ Blair