Bipolar 'Not otherwise specified' with psychotic features was my actual diagnosis.  I did the drug cocktail bullcrap the hospital psychiatrist prescribed for a bit, gained a bunch of weight with Depakote, got a permanent neurological tic (facial twitches and hand trembling) from Abilify, then finally took initiative in my recovery and dropped the meds and improved my diet, lost the weight, and used exercise to combat mania and depression.  I've been episode free since early 2006, and rarely have depression and when I do it's not of the suicidal variety and I'm still functional and hold down full time (and then some) employment.  I do not believe that I have a mental illness, it's just part of who I am, and if I don't take care of myself I can become mentally ill.  *shrug*

Quote from: SandraJane on August 19, 2011, 03:28:36 AM
Have they DX'd you with GID? Are on HRT? Getting any relief from any symptoms?  I have 2 Siamese kitties.

I haven't been diagnosed with GID yet and I'm not on HRT. My symptoms have been the same since I was 11. My parents never really bothered to do anything for me when I was younger except put me in the hospital. I was just always considered the child who had problems and my brother was the one who got my parent's attention. I turned 18 a couple months ago though, so now I can start doing things for myself.

I love Siamese cats too! Mine is named Norm and he has the bluest eyes I've ever seen on a cat. He's the best.

Bipolar type 2, major depressive, ocd symptoms, panic disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, ptsd...whole "kit and caboodle" ha

Quote from: Bahzi on August 20, 2011, 10:27:41 AM
Bipolar 'Not otherwise specified' with psychotic features was my actual diagnosis.  I did the drug cocktail bullcrap the hospital psychiatrist prescribed for a bit, gained a bunch of weight with Depakote, got a permanent neurological tic (facial twitches and hand trembling) from Abilify, then finally took initiative in my recovery and dropped the meds and improved my diet, lost the weight, and used exercise to combat mania and depression.  I've been episode free since early 2006, and rarely have depression and when I do it's not of the suicidal variety and I'm still functional and hold down full time (and then some) employment.  I do not believe that I have a mental illness, it's just part of who I am, and if I don't take care of myself I can become mentally ill.  *shrug*

Thats most peoples problem is living in a easy life with not working  for daily food etc.. also living in cities has so much polution and poisons and bad air etc etc that they cause us all kinds of problems. I also exercise out here just surviving and it has really helped me to find balance with my life. I have been in mental hospitals since i was 12 and finally living in the country away from lots of city people and that hurried life i am doing so much better. I also take care of my 88 yr old mom. I am bipolar and borderline and paranoid and depression makes me cry a lot but i am doing much better this last yr. I go outside and chop wood or play in the garden or build something etc etc. My life is hard for some people because i have no running water or plumbing in my house but it gives me more to do and that all fills my life with stuff to do. I kinda wonder why a FTM doesn't want to live this rustic life but it seems many want to live in cities. Oh well when mom dies i know i will be depressed and i just pray i find a roommate by then. In the mean time i have done a lot of positive work here in the last 10 months. http://directory.ic.org/22661/Central_Pa_Mountain_farm___for_Hip_open_minded_people

PS: I use to do every type of medicine but they all made me feel depressed and eat more and i got too fat and well i need simple things to do to make life filled and meaningful

I was sort of diagnosed with depression, but it was never actually made formally because there would have been no benefits to them to actually do it, they didn't believe that I would ever get medicated for it so continued with the worlds most pointless counselling sessions. Had I been able to tell the truth to them (a cocktail of knowing the answers to their questions, being too scared of accepting I really was depressed, thinking there was nothing wrong as I'd been like it since I was 7, and being terrified of shrinks and wanting to get out of there ASAP has stopped me ever being able to open up), it would almost certainly been taken further.
Other than a few voices in my head telling me otherwise when I'm most vulnerable (ie dysphoric) I've managed to sort myself out enough to have my shrinks file closed.

For those with PTSD what caused it? If your up for sharing that is.

Maybe we should start our own anxiety group and write a book or something.

I'm the poster boy for axis II. I take 7 different meds for that.
For me, taking spiro has been the most help in a lot of different ways.
So the score is crazy 7 to GID 1.

Ativan

Quote from: Wesley_33 on August 21, 2011, 07:23:39 PM
For those with PTSD what caused it? If your up for sharing that is.

Maybe we should start our own anxiety group and write a book or something.

Where were you deployed, Iraq, Afghanistan? Receiving any treatment from the VA?

Yes deployed to Iraq. Drove convoys while there. I am getting help from military now. I have a few more weeks of active duty left. I'm on terminal leave now.

Quote from: Wesley_33 on August 21, 2011, 09:10:17 PM
Yes deployed to Iraq. Drove convoys while there. I am getting help from military now. I have a few more weeks of active duty left. I'm on terminal leave now.

Do checkout the TAVA website, and make sure that you check in with VA as soon as you can. When I got of the Navy years ago, they were wording the DD 214's in such a way  for Dental Care, that the VA was not the accepting them. Screwy! Let them give you all the treatment for the PTSD that you can stand! My Dad was a WWII Vet and suffered from it (back when it didn't exist), didn't make home life any easier for us.

And by the way...Thank You for your Service, really! 

Quote from: Wesley_33 on August 21, 2011, 07:23:39 PM
For those with PTSD what caused it? If your up for sharing that is.

Maybe we should start our own anxiety group and write a book or something.

I'll share wit you on facebook or email or somethin. The anxiety group and book writin is a good idea, i dig it. Btw bro i didnt know you were in the force. Respect all the way. I gotta talk to you more now bout some ish. Hit you up on FB

Getting medically retired so I'm covered for life thankfully.

Have you heard of the Marine who will be getting the medal of honor in the next few weeks? Well he's getting it for his actions to be sure a friend I served with made it home. Sadly by the time he reached my friend and the others with him they had all be killed. Hes not the only friend I lost over there but hes the one that bothers me most.

http://www.marinecorpstimes.com/news/2011/07/marine-dakota-meyer-medal-of-honor-071911w/

I've been diagnosed with bipolar II and major depression, both of which runs in my family.  I've taken all sorts of antidepressants over the last four years and I still haven't found anything that works for me.

Quote from: Wesley_33 on August 21, 2011, 10:20:24 PM
Getting medically retired so I'm covered for life thankfully.

Have you heard of the Marine who will be getting the medal of honor in the next few weeks? Well he's getting it for his actions to be sure a friend I served with made it home. Sadly by the time he reached my friend and the others with him they had all be killed. Hes not the only friend I lost over there but hes the one that bothers me most.

http://www.marinecorpstimes.com/news/2011/07/marine-dakota-meyer-medal-of-honor-071911w/

God Bless you from one marine (vietnam era) to another may you stand tall and proud. Semper Fi

I think a fb group for anxiety- and depression- suffering transfolk would be an excellent idea. As for ftms on here, I think I'm already connected with most of you guys--- let's get that started!

I started the fb group up today. Trans Anxiety couldn't think of better name. Insomnia been kicking my butt and my brain is mush. Made it a closed group to protect privacy. Made a few folks admin so just ask to join and start talking.

I had mild Dissociative Identity Disorder and Dissociative Panic. It was actually a result of being trans, but being raised in a traumatic situation that didn't allow me to explore my identity. I basically developed a female persona to live parts of my life for me and make things easier, as well as make people happy. The problem was that, it was only a persona, not a full personality, so when I started to have strong dissociation and dysphoria, there wasn't a full personality left to make proper decisions.
I had that for over 4 years, but when it started falling apart was when I started having panic attacks. I was in therapy for it for a time. Since coming out to close friends almost a year ago I haven't had any dissociation, and since I started living full-time I haven't had any panic attacks or anxiety attacks.
I'm still on anti-depressants, though.

My main diagnosis is schizoaffective disorder. But my worst problems are my OCD and anxiety problems. I'm hoping T will help the anxiety as I'm pretty confident in the fact that it was me hating who I was that caused me to be anxious.