3 weeks ago was my first night out, it was scary and exciting. I had went to local gay bar to watch the drag shows. My wife had actually helped me with my makeup (which wasnt very

good). I recieved alot of advise on my first time out and really made improvements on the following weekend. Jeans/Blouse sandals and makeup, enough to be good but no paint spraying

involved. As each outing came and went my courage and self esteem have grown by leaps and bounds. Last night after leaving bar at 3:30am i was hungry and decided to goto McDonalds

on the way home. I was feeling so good i thought "Why not" and went inside to place my order and eat there. My wife was with me and asked "you want me to order?", to which i replied

"No lets do this". At the register the "young teenage girl" said "Hello Ladies, can i take your order". I ordered my food and hers and didnt bat an eye. I know have this strange elation where

I just want to call EVERYONE, my mother, father, sister, brother, employees,ect... and let them know. Though i can say this would be a bad choice for me as i am not ready and i know my

wife sure isn't. But this feeling of well being, feels as if i am untouchable and the brick wall around my soul has finally colasped. I know it was just 3 trips to a gay bar and one visit to

Mcdonalds at 3:30am. Has anyone else gone through these feelings before i know i cant be the only one. I would like to know how others reacted or handled this.


PS funny thing happened i was paying my capital one credit card bill online and clicked on ADD athorized User and i type In Jessica ***$*$* with my SSN,Address,Ect... and got sent a card

for Jessica.....They needed no verification or anything thought that was kinda funny.

Careful with the credit card thing.  You could end up with an AKA on your credit reports. It happened to me. It took forever to get it off.

I understand your elation and joy. But... think through telling everyone until you are prepared to handle the consequences. Often times we don't plan appropriately and get hurt in the most awful ways.

Cindi

Heh, I feel that way ALL the time, I just want to let it out, so I could have someone to talk to about it, relieve some of the stress. Then I start thinking about what doing that could lead to, and I just decide to keep my mouth shut in the end.