I would connect these things to the "if you don't deal with it right, then you won't be able to pass, and you must stress over them because of that" group, but I really can't. They make me sad simply because they exist.

Facial hair, and for that matter, excess body hair. There's not even a need for body or facial hair that I can think of anymore, and dealing with it sucks.

Tucking (pre OP). It can sometimes hurt.

Enlarged trachea, again, why?

Relationships that started before transition. Why is everything so complicated?

Being poor. If I weren't poor none of the above would be an issue anymore. (At least you can work your way out of it)

I just woke up this morning and sat down on the couch. I am not looking forward to the 30 minute morning routine that isn't guaranteed to provide passing results. I do it because I feel much less crazy afterward, but I am soooo tired of the feeling of futility. It feels like I traded some major anxiety for a constant battle with my body. That sucks too.

Preaching to the choir! Go ahead!!!! Amen Sistah!

Quote from: EmmaM on August 22, 2011, 10:36:28 AM
I am not looking forward to the 30 minute morning routine that isn't guaranteed to provide passing results.

Wow... 30 minutes?!  You've got me beat by an hour!

But I hear ya.  All that stuff sucks (I'm hugely grateful that I never grew body hair or an adam's apple).

Tucking is the worst for me.  Don't know what I'm doing wrong, but the burning, itching, pinching, serious pain that I feel every second of my clothes-wearing day is enough to drive me crazy.  I hate not being able to sit on soft cushions, or stand up and sit down without everything falling apart.  It would be nice not to have to spend a minute or two simply pulling up my pants every time I need to use a restroom, and the extra restroom trips to adjust for pinching pain.  Now I'm getting callouses in places where no human being would ever want a callous.

But until I can find a job, my finances are moving in the opposite direction of making surgery a reality.

Having a super dark mustache line even with pounds of makeup. I'm getting that thing zapped off later this week, enough is enough!

Having no hips whatsoever. It's just a straight line down both sides.

My testicles look like a turkey's neck.

Falling off your skateboard when it's at a virtual standstill like some idiot noob and ending up in Yay!&E with a messed up wrist sucks. The other stuff I've just learnt to deal with...the joke about my (excuse the language) bearded tits caused a work collegue to nearly spit her coffee across her computer screen and even on ugly thursdays with three days stubble growth I still get gendered female. It doesn't stop being a pain, but you eventually just accept it as something that just is.

Except tucking...I just hate the fact it's there and count the days until it's gone.

Quote from: Zoë Natasha on August 22, 2011, 12:31:25 PM
Wow... 30 minutes?!  You've got me beat by an hour!

It's my hair that's the biggest time waster...It never sits right. ever.

I feel you Emma, I have a lot of similar issues including relationships and money, it sucks