I had a couple of friends go away.  However, I never really held onto people (except family) so it would have eventually happened anyway.

My sense of invulnerability.  I faked guy pretty well and could be very intimidating.  I never worried about being assaulted while out and about because most people were intimidated and even scared of me.  I even had a full restaurant go silent once when I went in and it stayed that way until I sat down and someone leaned over to speak to me.  Just like the movies.  I am smaller and physically weaker now and although I can intimidate people (or so I have been told), it is nowhere near like before and now I do have to keep things like assault and rape in mind.

Some nice clothing that I got during my last few years as trying to pass myself off as male.  Really nice suit that was pretty unique in cut and always got compliments.  Around the house I still throw my (now way too big) Dragonball Z baseball jersey on. 

For me, transition has been difficult.  I've lost my mate, my lover.  Strained family relations.  What is really hard is reading about this new life that she has.  Being left behind I guess is really hard.

Gill

My marriage and my family, to date.

So far, I have not only not lost any friends, but actually gained them, so I suppose 'all in all', I've 'broke even'.

A relationship with my family. They couldnt accept that I was a woman.

Quote from: Tink on April 09, 2007, 05:41:15 PM

Quote from: Tink on February 24, 2007, 09:12:37 PM
I have been really fortunate, for I haven't lost anything really but gained everything!

tinkerbell

Right!  what dope I was!  my sacrifice? everything! 

tink

[emotionally dead, fried from crying all day......]

What the hell was I thinking, Tink?

I've only lost one thing, one person, one relationship............and it's just killing me.......

crying again; wonderful.

I had finally found that special human being to marry and it was wonderful...............

and my accursed TS destroyed it, "Broken Dreams" indeed.

And today I was cleaning and discarding stuff.........and I kept finding mementos of times spent together, laughing and loving....

and we thought that it would last a million years, it was so right.

And now we shall never share love and laughter ever again.

I keep wanting to go back to the way things used to be, but I just cannot; there is no going back...

I cannot be who she needs and wants me to be, and she deserves to have that.

"Broken Dreams" and I am fighting to get through this intact. 

Thirteen days ago I sent a letter to my step-son and his wife.  You know, THE letter?

Today they came to visit my wife while I was at work.

I think they will be my sacrifice, unless daughter in law moves her position a long way.    I hoped for the best and expected the worst.  I got what I expected.

tears,
helen

Quote from: HelenW on April 09, 2007, 08:51:10 PM
Thirteen days ago I sent a letter to my step-son and his wife.  You know, THE letter?

Today they came to visit my wife while I was at work.

I think they will be my sacrifice, unless daughter in law moves her position a long way.    I hoped for the best and expected the worst.  I got what I expected.

tears,
helen

That's so sad Helen but don't give up the ship just yet.  Concentrate on your step son if for no other reason but to show him that you are the same person on the inside.  It took my daughter a while to get her head around this thing of ours, but she did come round.

Steph

Quote from: Tink on April 09, 2007, 05:41:15 PM

Quote from: Tink on February 24, 2007, 09:12:37 PM
I have been really fortunate, for I haven't lost anything really but gained everything!

tinkerbell

Right!  what dope I was!  my sacrifice? everything! 

tink

are you ok? 

I live with a kitty.  I will not lose my job because of the nature of the position and DC law.

I never married.
The only thing I sacraficed was 10 years of my life struggling while my gender identity issues grew harder and harder to bear.  I sacraficed not dealing with these issues for an education, and finding the right job, and lost some hair along the way.  Much of what I sacraficed was from ignoring these issues or not dealing with them even though they were effecting every aspect of my life (my previous job, my health and my mental well being). 

I am lucky I never got married. 

My relationship with my parents is strained by they still love me.  But the relationship was always strained, and it is not solely based on my transition. 

The thing is I have very little to lose from transition, and so much to gain.  My life has very few strings.

The 39 years of my life prior to SRS are sacraficed and down the drain. The severe depression that I had prior to going fulltime is sacrificed and gone and that is a good thing. I was ostracized at my work place and eventually had my job position eliminated. So my job was sacrificed, which means that financial security is an ongoing issue still. I lost just about all the aquaintences I had, and ended up with only two close friendships surviving my transitioning. I haven't actually seen my little brother in years and have to wonder if my transitioning played a part in that though it is denied. I lost my oldest nephew for awhile but he's coming to terms with it.
I went into transitioning with my eyes wide open. I would still do the whole thing all over again without hesitation.
Rashelle

I can't see my step dad anymore... but that doesn't bother me.

I stopped my studies. I was too shy and I couldn't afford it anymore because I had to move and all those new clothes and epiderma were pretty expensive!
I don't know if it was a good idea though.. i kinda regret that decision but i just couldn't go on like that... i was getting a little bit too depressive.

I lost any kind of emotional relationship with my wife.  After ten years of being told that she's no longer attracted to me, and I don't care anymore.  If there's anything I miss, it's being touched and feeling the love behind it.  No more touching.  No more holding hands.  Just emptiness left.  We're friends.  We are companions.  But the only emotion we share is the kids.   

Ya, I lost my church, but that was no great loss.  I have another one.

Quote from: Lisbeth on April 22, 2007, 03:58:28 PM
I lost any kind of emotional relationship with my wife. 

(((hug)))

If I did my Wife and home. If I dont happiness

Quote from: BeverlyAnn on April 22, 2007, 05:22:34 PM
(((hug)))

Thank you.