Why cant people accept that I will not always feel pretty.
Ive begun to accept it, even though it feels permanent.

Lets see. Friday= derma roller. This means Ive been chillin for 2 days with a freaking petroleum jelly based mask on my face.
                Saturday= tooth pulled. This means my mouth tastes freaking disgusting.

You are not obligated to make me feel better, it wont work. I feel icky and I will feel this way until I dont anymore.
I understand people such as the beautiful spouse of mine, dont want me to feel this way. I do, it will pass, just let it be.

On top of this. Big shake up at work, and the guy they demoted to give me the promotion, will now be working for me starting tuesday.
LOL. What weird mechanisms taking place.

Not to mention a long time friend of mine who knows I am not out on facebook due to work relationships and the lack of gender identity civil rights in Nevada until Oct 1st, posts a pic of a car mechanic shop that says "trans fix" and asks if I want her to check if they are hiring.

ARRGGGHH. Not that I care if people know, it just would be nice to not have to worry about being outed at work until at the very least I have some rights

Yeah I never do. Heck I think even most cis women don't feel pretty at times. Personally it doesn't bother me all that much though. I never expected nor wanted to be a model or anything. I'd just like to have proper anatomy and the same opportunities as most others in this country (speaking from the USA).

But yeah, most women feel that way sometimes.

Everyone has those days... You just need to go forward and make due.

Jillian, even the butterfly started as a catapilliar, take you time and focus on the goal not the mirror of today. I will get better. 

Cis women I know all feel like that once a month, so it's something we can learn to cope with on the odd occaission it happens to us.  Having a tooth pulled is surgery of a sort, so is bound to make you feel lousy for a day or two anyway.  All part of life's rich travesty I guess.

Karen.