Ooo, well, you didnt ask but yeah, the scariest or most intimidating thing was dilating!
The whole post op process is weird i think, its like having goal posts and literally keep moving them. ie, cant wait till the bandages come off, to get packing out, having a real pee, to get home, to stop wearing pads, to get down to 2 dilations a day, to get down to one, now trialling 1 per 2 days etc etc.
I dont know if its a coping mechanism, just me or if its because we are so used to steps or hoops that it now seems weird to think its all over and just life again now