I've tried packing numerous times over the 5 years I've been full time, and I feel like this is the last straw. Before I was on T, it seemed natural and right. Now, it just reminds me that I don't have a real penis. But WTF??? If I don't pack, I feel that way. If I do, I feel far more that way. Is there any solution? And am I crazy to feel this way, or are there other guys out there who have experienced this?

There are definitely other guys who feel this way.  I'm one of them.  Packing in theory seems like it would be great but in actuality it's horrible for me. 

Maybe it's because when you pack you can feel it and it draws your attention to that regional of your body when you would usually not be thinking about it.

I feel like I am wearing it wrong all the time and am constantly worrying if it is going to fall out even with a harness. Then other times I am okay with it.

What packers have you tried? I find that I can't stand the 3.5" (points straight out too much) or 5" (too big) Mr. Limpy ones but can handle the 4" GV one.

hey luc i dont know if this will help or not i doubt it but im going to try if you feel better without it then dont were it i am mtf as a natal male with the exception of my teenage years i really dont even know the thing is there im also sure that most guys will tell you the same hence the reason so many accidentily rack themselfs because its presence on our bodys isnt noticed until its needed. i mentioned the teenage years because when t first kicks in al brain activity is centereed on that part of our bodies how long have you been on t it took me about 10 years to get that way. from 13 to 23 after that i barily noticed i had it as my gid centers around my face and body hair bleh good luck
jessi

I only bought my first packer fairly recently, but I have a similar problem. It really reinforces the fact that something a lot like that should be there, and isn't. I actually found it really upsetting since I wasn't expecting it at all. I'm trying to get over it, because I do want to start packing regularly.

I have the occasional dysphoria when packing...but it helps to remind myself that my STP packer is fairly functional, and is also advertised for bio-males with a micro-penis as well as transmales. If I have pants on I don't tend to think about it much, since I don't really feel it. But when I do, it bothers me to no end. But at the same time, for me, having it off is worse, but I'm pre-t, so I'm not sure it's the same for me yet.

Quote from: Luc on August 25, 2011, 02:34:43 PM
I've tried packing numerous times over the 5 years I've been full time, and I feel like this is the last straw. Before I was on T, it seemed natural and right. Now, it just reminds me that I don't have a real penis. But WTF??? If I don't pack, I feel that way. If I do, I feel far more that way. Is there any solution? And am I crazy to feel this way, or are there other guys out there who have experienced this?

Could be because you're actually fixating on the fact that it's rubber and not part of you. Or fixating on the fact that you'll never have a "normal", functioning penis like every other guy (this one still gets to me on occasion ... and I have what some other guys might be envious of, but it still doesn't function 100% like a regular guy's). Even if you saved up for some sort of lower surgery, you'd only be solving part of the issue if the issue is indeed being unable to get past the regular, functioning penis thing. Personally I think those meta-whatever they're called is kind of a middle of the road option. You still need some "attachments" to pull off sex properly, but at least you have feeling in it and you can pee with it. If surgery isn't going to be an option, then you just have to start looking at things a little differently. There's no way I can see from your picture that anyone would mistake you for anything but male in regular life. Fixate on those positive aspects. No one sees you without clothes except your significant other, your doctor, and yourself.