I have always found men attractive (i just didn't want to be sexual with them). But, as of late, whenever I notice an attractive guy I focus on a specific feature and think to myself "I want to look like that!". Random, but definitely a fun change. 

im the same, somethimes I look at guys because I wish I had the same body or something like that,
and somethimes its just for candyeyes.

I also do that. Especially when I'm at the beach with topless guys, but then it ends up triggering my dysphoria

I do the same...I see men that are around my build and I focus on them to see what they're wearing, how they carry themselves, how they fix their hair etc. But, I also look at men for other reasons *Waggles brows*

Quote from: Russell on September 02, 2011, 11:09:00 AM
I also do that. Especially when I'm at the beach with topless guys, but then it ends up triggering my dysphoria

Same, not at the beach though. I stopped going swimming when I realized my transiness.
Just seeing guys run around shirtless though, makes me either want to go hang myself or go all Ed Gein on them.

I see guys at school or out on the street (it doesn't matter if they're attractive or not) and I get really pissed and depressed that they can grow a beard, build muscle quicker, have a penis and stuff and ugh, it kills me. It's even worse when I see a guy with a cute straight girl and I keep thinking "If I was really a guy then I could get a straight cute or somewhat decent looking girl" I always pity myself and think of suicide.

I do this same thing. -.- It get's really bothersome. Whenever I see guys that could be 'attractive' I end up staring at them and accidentally end up mimicking what they do to, I don't know,. come off as more masculine. It feels stupid talking about it but I always end up doing it anyways. XD

This definitely rings a bell - before I realised I might be trans I never paid much attention at all to men  - now I find myself actually noticing them, lol!  The other day, rather disturbingly, I found myself actually resenting a male friend at work - he's so effortlessly 'male' - so confident in the way he wears his physicality.  Grr.  The poor man.  Ain't his fault.  And he probably has his insecurities like everyone else, lol.

I know I just shouldn't be really surprised --- but it is still mind blowing how so similar our issues are.

Just visa versa. Everything about this body and mannerisms envy... same same.

Sorry, I just had to say this. Still feels quite unreal, at least to me.

Thanks for the education, dudes.
Axelle

Quote from: Clive on September 03, 2011, 07:31:45 AM
The other day, rather disturbingly, I found myself actually resenting a male friend at work - he's so effortlessly 'male' - so confident in the way he wears his physicality.  Grr.  The poor man.  Ain't his fault.  And he probably has his insecurities like everyone else, lol.

I do the same thing! Or something so trivial as seeing an attractive man skateboarding by and I'll be jealous of his body/hair and secretly hope he falls or something.    *shame*

Quote from: Preston on September 03, 2011, 11:18:30 AM
I do the same thing! Or something so trivial as seeing an attractive man skateboarding by and I'll be jealous of his body/hair and secretly hope he falls or something.    *shame*

I've done that before -.- But as Karma goes, I normally will end up paying such close attention to what he's doing I trip or something. And then I start feeling stupid.

For me, I mostly just get jealous of men now xD
Especially Chris Hemsworth *Fume* Dammit...