Quote from: kyle_lawrence on September 06, 2011, 08:37:45 PM
the only time seeing a guy without a shirt on really gets to me is when its my brother. He's like 6'2" and kinda muscle-y with a somewhat hairy chest, and Gah! He annoys me, because hes my brother, and I can't help but think "I could have looked like that if I was born male". Seeing other other guys shirtless doesn't really bother me. Sometimes I even enjoy the eye candy.
I can totally relate! My sister is absolutely gorgeous. She has a curvy figure, feminine and youthful facial features, etc. and it makes me feel so jealous. I can't help but look at her and think how I could have been so pretty if I was cis (or if I had started HRT before testosterone puberty). The "could have been" and "should have been" thoughts are the worst ones.
But then again, I think one advantage I've gained with having some ugly features is that it's helped me develop a great sense of style and helped me become very good at make-up. If I was as pretty as my sister, there's a chance I might not be as good with clothes, make-up and stuff as I am since I would use it less and therefore have less practice with it. I actually think "fake beauty" is the only legitimate form of beauty, since unlike natural beauty, it takes skill, talent, creativity, and effort to achieve it. It takes no effort to be born with a pretty face, therefore it shouldn't deserve as much credit as beautiful hair, clothes, nails, and make-up. Unfortunately, most of the world doesn't think the same way I do.
