Hey guys and gals. So, I have to admit--I'm not sure if I am a transman or not. I know that I was born female and have lived as a female my whole life, but...I can't really say that I enjoy it. I like make-up and dressing cute, sure, but the idea of straight sex or having anyone touch my boobs (or other areas lol) grosses me out. When I imagine myself in the future, I always picture myself as a man, with a man, and I can TOTALLY get into him touching my manly chest, if that makes sense, haha. I don't ever want to be anybody's wife or mother.

Did any of you have this problem--that you didn't feel like you were meant to be the opposite sex, per se, but just that you weren't meant to be the sex you were born as? I was never a tomboy, I never cut my hair super short or drew a face moustache and beard on my face in the bathroom mirror, lol, but like I said, I don't feel like a woman. But I don't really feel like a man either But, if I could choose what sex to be born as, I'd choose man, hands down.

Sorry, that was kind of a confusing rant, lol.

I suggest you go to therapy to work through these issues. 

Hi Limepepsi, welcome to Susans! There is a ton of information and lots of friendly people here to talk to. Glad you joined us, hugs, Tracey

Thanks Andy. I've e-mailed Melissa Leonhardt twice now but haven't heard back from her yet. She seems like the best counselor for my position (i.e, being poor and not having any counselors readily available in the area).

hi im new here too. i'm gonna be a chick!