Ive been on hrt for approximately 6 months and ive yet to see a thing change. It doesnt bother me as i view that as normal.  One thing does bother me though, i feel angry at the fact that i have to take hormones most likely the rest of my life just to mimic the hormones that come naturally to bio females. I have to take hormones just to grow boobs, to gain at least some curves and to change other things caused by testosterone and that come naturally to women. Im glad that im able to pursue my happiness with hormones, surgeries and stuff like this but it's just so much work physically and mentally and it gives me a sense of falseness. I mean its unfair to have to pay for things that some people have naturally and at times it seems that its not worth it. I just had to vent a little 

I know exactly where you're coming from. But maybe try to look at it from a different angle. We have amazing medicine and technology. We have a great privilege of being able to transition with synthetic hormones at all. Think of transsexuals in the past that were not able to enjoy these privileges that we have.

  Yeah life sucks...and then you die    But seriously, just give it time and try and keep a positive attitude about it. I think if you are in that state of mind thinking "oh this isn't working...wdf?!?" then you're not gonna have good results from hrt. 

I'm thankful for having access to hormones. 80 years ago none of this would have been possible.

I don't expect hormones to make me passable or a girl... but I am greatful for every step it can shift me towards that direction.

the fact that I will have to take hormones for the rest of my life does not make me mad, I would rather choose this than to take the alternative of defeminizing.

i'd probably have gone nuts by now, or dead if it wern't for the little magic pill. maybe it is more mental than chemical but who cares - for me it works. 

It's better to have loved and lost... then to have never loved at all. 

ElsaG,

Can I point out that most women have to work hard at it also.  Do you read ALLURE, Lucky, Vogue, or any of the other woman's magazines?  They diet, pluck, prod, inject, go under the knife to get to some ideal.  That ideal is often airbrushed and retouched.  I grew up in a wealthy area and many girls I knew went to finishing school.  Four years of poise, posture, etiquette, empathy, socialization.  Then at college, what do you think sorority's are all about?  Now, I'm not suggesting that one should aspire to all that, or that it is good.  Only that it isn't "natural" for anyone.  It simply is forcing one to conform to some standard.  Really, EVERYONE is fake in some ways.  Perhaps the hardest thing for us is overcoming what we learned in boy socialization.   

what I feel is that transitioning gives my life meaning and validates who I am as a person, so I feel taking hormones does not make me fake it makes me an authentic person,

I would not want to live without my hormones cause I don't want to be guy.

QuoteIve been on hrt for approximately 6 months and ive yet to see a thing change.

Really? I know it takes years for changes to take full effect but at 6 months my nipples were sore/sensitive and I'm sure I had a little bit of breast growth. My skin was clearing up and much smoother. Those were notable changes at 6 months. Maybe you should check your hormone levels and dosages with your doctor.

QuoteOne thing does bother me though, i feel angry at the fact that i have to take hormones most likely the rest of my life just to mimic the hormones that come naturally to bio females.

I'm worried about any future liver problems/blood clots for those of us who are on the tablets. But I believe it is a blessing to have the opportunity to be on HRT. I would rather that then to stay with the nasty effects testosterone gives our bodies.

QuoteI mean its unfair to have to pay for things that some people have naturally

The reality is, life isn't fair. You're fortunate enough to be on HRT. Some don't have that priviledge. Remember, there are always those that have it worse than you. Cheer up and enjoy the changes that are to come.

I know what you mean. I had an anxiety attack once, and I still have it every once in a while, that I will never be a 100% female because I won't have the reproductive organs of females.  Not that I want kids, just the feeling of being whole. It is frustrating but maybe there are ways to deal with that.  I am glad that there is a way to combat the testosterone in my body.

You look great in the picture, btw.

Quote from: elsaG on September 09, 2011, 01:37:02 AM
Ive been on hrt for approximately 6 months and ive yet to see a thing change. It doesnt bother me as i view that as normal.  One thing does bother me though, i feel angry at the fact that i have to take hormones most likely the rest of my life just to mimic the hormones that come naturally to bio females. I have to take hormones just to grow boobs, to gain at least some curves and to change other things caused by testosterone and that come naturally to women. Im glad that im able to pursue my happiness with hormones, surgeries and stuff like this but it's just so much work physically and mentally and it gives me a sense of falseness. I mean its unfair to have to pay for things that some people have naturally and at times it seems that its not worth it. I just had to vent a little 

I have been on HRT for 14 years and I don't seem to have any changes. I don't have any hip development whatsoever, my boobs are too small to be boobs and look more like man boobs. My body proportions are wrong too and I am a bigger size on the top than the bottom (U.K 16 - 18 on the top and 12 on the bottom). So please don't expect much after 6 months. Put yourself in my position I feel cheated and my depression has hit rock bottom recently and the reality that's it's not working after 14 years of HRT is very hard to take in.

I kind off agree with Cindy that you need to work on it and relying on just HRT isn't enough. I exercise and control my diet and I don't drink alchohol. But I still can't get a female shape and any fat I have goes on my belly and not where I want it to go.