In ~ 1954! I wanted to be rid of my 'extra' , be girl! No web then, no information, no doctor knew a thing, no nothing!
Just shut up your face don't act like a lunatic --- yep, lots of that there was then.
The web did help, MUCH later though, to figure out what on earth was going on with me, feeling like a girl inside.
Still LOTS of non-information on our GID subject. Not one councillor, therapist, awareness group trainer knew --- at least didn't want to know.
It was all just too much, too off-the-wall, even for mainstream psychologists, at least in SA, and also in Munich Germany in the 90s still!
If you found one that WOULD listen, you could look forward to be getting electro-shock therapy – get welcomed to the cuckoo's nest. Fancy that?
Better to shut up and keep pushing it down.
It was an UNSPEAKABLE, THE unspeakable, thing. You just push it right back down, cram the lid back on. Be a man, if you can't take it – put a bullet through your head. That was the solution – with VERY few exception.
Male-lesbian as I felt, when mentioning it to ANYONE, they think you plumb crazy.
Yes, in the end the web helped to understand what the heck was going on inside me.
THAT I WAS NOT CRAZY, that there actually was a thing like GID.
Even today, only ONE psychiatrist is "qualified" to deal with this issue in SA, as a "gatekeeper"! Old style. Maybe because he is gay? Yet, as a gay male to get into our MtF heads is on another page. He actually can't and is not interested either. Just ticking off boxes.
I suffered this individual for 1 year. So, the web also became my support group. There is NONE in the whole (SA) Gauteng province!!!
By that token we still live in the dark ages as to what GID is concerned, at least in SA.
My 2 cents, eh
Axelle