So here I am, joining a TG forum again after nearly two years of not visiting or contributing to any TG related sites. I'll get to why I stopped visiting forums in a moment.
My back story is fairly generic... I was the middle of three children, all boys. My oldest brother is three years older, and my youngest is a year and a half younger than I. I've grown up in southern Arizona, in the USA, been here my whole life. My parents are still married, and both parents were always there for me. I always feel like this is an important detail, because so many people think that M2F TG people were somehow deprived of a male role model, and I, as I'm sure many of you do to, know that to be untrue. I've felt that I was different as far back as I can remember, and I knew I wanted to be a girl from a very young age, but just as many were, I was good at hiding it.
OK, so I was 29 when I felt that I could no longer hide, so I came out to my family and friends and haven't looked back since.
I'm 32 now, and have been full time since 4-11-2009. I've been on HRT since 9-1-2008. I used to be a part of another TG forum, but as I began to understand myself better, I started to feel like I spent too much time on the forum, and as dumb as it sounds, felt that maybe I was done with the TG community, like I was ready to graduate to real life or something. I felt that since I was full time, I got tired of trans talk, and wanted to just be a girl, not a trans-girl. I have a youtube channel, and have been a part of that community for a while, but sometimes it's hard to have an in-depth conversation on a comment thread.
Lately, I've been getting more and more depressed, and I'm starting to think that it's partly because I don't have anyone who really gets me in my life. In fact today has been quite a bad day. I just feel so dang alone sometimes, and it's a horrible feeling. I tell my friends and family "I get why so many trans people commit suicide" , not that I would, but I do get it. Sometimes the pain is unbearable.
Anyway, I could fill a mile long page with other facts about me, but instead I'll just blurt out some quick stats. I have an 8 year old boy I take care of alone. My oldest brother has cut his family out of mine because I'm trans, I've been unemployed since 2008,My son and I live with my parents and so does my youngest brother and his girlfriend, I have only a couple of friends left from my boy days, using male pronouns on me really bothers me now.
OK, I think that covers the basics. I look forward to lurking around and reading up on past threads. I'll most likely not post a thread until I've lurked for a bit, just to make sure I don't bring up something that has been done to death. Now if I can figure out how to put a picture or two on my profile I'll be good to go. Thanks for your time.
