well......
long story short my family isn't the supportive type more the - haha look at that freak ; type.
i have my hair grown out and have everyone in my family telling me to cut it, but id give anything to have my mom teach me how to braid it,
and stop with the constant brow beating....(unknwowingly) i want to raise confidence in myself, and have someone to look up to/chat with about
random everyday things (i talk alot so be warned)
if any girls out there can just idk...chat with me? that would be totally amazing

i'm sorry if this is against the rules but my instant messeneger is [sorry, removed by moderator]
if anyone would like to hear my story/be my friend

Personally, I grew up with a lot of freaks in the television/film/music world, I never really felt out of place no matter how much my family thought I was. With (very talented) singers like Marilyn Manson, Jeffree Star, Adam Lambert, Emilie Autumn, and (very talented) actors like Johnny Depp, Cillian Murphy, and all that, I've never felt out of place being someone who gender bends and makes extreme transitions. Even before my time, there were plenty of downright weird people starting with the 70's. I do find it all a big inspiration, as in the end, what is popular and successful in the media world is truly what is the vote of the people. People like freaks, they just don't want to admit it.

For instance my first favorite music video was Marilyn Manson's The Dope Show, where he's wearing an alien/woman skin suit with boobs and no genitalia. To me, it's inspirational that at least someone out there is breaking gender conventions in the media world, giving a young audience the open minds to accept a guy that looks like he has boobs. Not sure it ever worked, but it sure didn't hurt IMO. It only helped that Marilyn Manson's band always has been extremely talented musically, I probably would have been less partial to his gender bending if his music sucked; however, I've always felt that his shock value and aesthetic promotion was actually one step behind how entertaining his musical albums have been.

Hi Maiya, and welcome to Susan's! We're a diverse and friendly bunch here (the head count is over 8000) - get into things as slowly or as quickly as you feel comfortable, I'm sure you'll find plenty of support here.

I'm afraid you don't get to post links or photos or email addresses until you've made 15 posts (see the rules below) - and in general we don't encourage people to post their email addresses inline here, to protect them from spam and unwanted attention from trollpervs - so I suggest once you've got your posts up to 15, you could use PMs (private messages) or get into the chat room here instead? You can always give people there your email once you feel they're okay.

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hey. I am my name is Nicole, my friends all call me Nikki, and so can you. Ill be your friend. Use the email link to email me then we'll exchenge instant messenger info. If I dont hear from you i hope its cuz you have found what you are looking for!

Lots of love and endless hugz,

Nikki

Be your own role model, be your own hero.  Using others, particularly those who are celebrities who's outward impression is more manufactured than real, is a bad road to walk on.