I am wondering what it actually feels like to have srs. Like the physical/mental sensations.

Are you talking about the operation, recovery or life after srs?

Quote from: annette on September 18, 2011, 04:07:04 AM
Are you talking about the operation, recovery or life after srs?

All aspects. As I sit here now, I keep imagining my penis being transformed into a vagina. Like how does it affect you mentally.

Well, it gives a feeling of freedom.
You can wear that nice bikini, swimming, go to the beach, have sex the way it was mented, all these kind of things.
Basically...live like any other woman except for giving birth, but, you know, we all have flaws.

Does this answer your question or do you want to know more?

Hugs
Annette

If you still have testes it will take away that nasty male sex drive.. No longer will it happen every day.. you will be like any other woman simple and free and not mentally connected to the male way of thinking due to having those nasty testes.. Heck you might even become a lesbian and become attracted to butch dykes like me..


EDITED TO ADD:
Kidding .. I read your post and i know your a hetero and you seem like a nice person trying to get on with your life after a wild youth.. may you find that happiness

Here are my blog posts that cover my SRS.  It will give you a little insight to what you are asking.

My GCS, Part One:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,31348.0.html

My GCS, Part Two:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,34031.0.html

Epilog:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,34233.0.html

The primary purpose of transition is to integrate yourself into society, so SRS itself in that respect, plays little into that scenario.  However SRS does have a profound mental aspect that changes you internally.  It is the final integration between mind and body.

-Sandy

Quote from: Mahsa the shark on September 18, 2011, 03:52:39 AM
I am wondering what it actually feels like to have srs. Like the physical/mental sensations.

The first thing was the profound sense of inner calm that comes with the congruence of mind and body...there was no longer the situation of being limited on where and what you can do or who to date because all has become right in the world.

 

Quote from: Mahsa the shark on September 18, 2011, 03:52:39 AM
I am wondering what it actually feels like to have srs. Like the physical/mental sensations.

I agree with Ann.  The moment I woke up after the operation, I felt a complete sense of inner calm like I'd never felt before.

     It was such a complete, total, new and wonderful feeling that I spent 5 days in the hospital, flat on my back in bed and never even turned on the TV.  I was just happy to be.

     After the 5 days, I spent another week in a beautiful bed and breakfast and never turned on the TV or read any of the books I'd brought.  I just laid there in complete peace and tranquility.  The owner of the place came by a few days in and asked if I was OK.  She said I'd been so quiet she thought something was wrong.  Just happy, I replied.

      Now, 6 months later, I still have that same inner mental peace.  This is proof positive to me that GID is, in fact, a medical condition.  There is nothing mental about it, other than the awful effects of it.

Hmmm... My first reaction was "Holy crap what the hell have I done now?"   Juuuuuuust kidding... 

It's finished, now I can start living.  To be honest I no longer remember what it felt like after I woke from surgery.  My ex was by my side when I came to, and I remember what she said, "Do you know that you're smiling".  I've been smiling ever since.

It is different for a lot of people I am sure BUT it depends on WHO u are as a WOMAN.  ME, I didnt ever USE my old organ at all.  I didnt even let a man see it NOR did i even touch it, nor did i even mess with a man who WANTED to see it so for ME, it had been MENTALLY not there since childhood, so for ME, when I woke up, i didnt smile, i didnt frown, i just said make me a milkshake and pass me the remote control.  NOW almost 2 yrs later is when i stand in the mirror and start screaming with JOY, literally. 

ALL n ALL, you have to MENTALLY separate yourself from that part prior to surgery because IF you are a transsexual who actually ENJOYS using it then you might have some issues but if not, then girl you will be alright.

OMG !!!! What does one say? Ans: It's simple. Thank you soooooo much Sandy for putting this pen to paper. I haven't cried this much in years. I've run out of tears to cry, but I'm still crying. (I'm sure there will be more tomorrow) Are these keyboards waterproof (or tearproof) or can I get it replaced under warranty. Thank you .... thank you ..... thank you.

What release, emancipation, freedom and any other word that means being let go. You have opened such a magic space within me .... to know it's a reality, not a dream. Thank you. The realisation that there is still a chance of meeting Mr Right, making him happy and living out the remaining time is a thousands times more exilerating than that first sky jump from 15,000 feet. Thank you soooo much
Lotsa luv
Catherine

This goes over some of the basics of my experience, at least for the actual surgery itself. Recovery goes on for a while after.

Before Surgery video/vlog:
http://blog.transitioningpast.com/2011/03/vlog-day-before-surgery.html

After Surgery Vlog:
http://blog.transitioningpast.com/2011/03/vlog-day-after-surgery.html

GCS Experience inspirational video:
http://blog.transitioningpast.com/2011/03/special-video-my-gcs-experience.html

Debra,
Thank you for your video blogs. You are one awesomely blest woman. Thank you. I'll say more, once I get myself back together. But for the time being, please accept thank you , thank you, thank you.
Lotsa luv
Catherine

Wow You been through all these I wish some day I can do it too.
And thanks for sharing all these way <3

For me, surgery itself was pretty painless,(just over three weeks ago) I had no pain and was up and moving around like nothing happened three days after, but everyone is different in that regard. there was a lot of tingling going on but no pain. Four days after my initial SRS, one day before the second stage, I had a climax from nowhere, just sitting there watching TV, and BOOM, BOOM, BOOM, BOOM!!! It was very shocking to have this happen so soon after surgery, and at the same time pleasing, cause I knew I would be able to climax.  I had no pain until I began dialating. I'm very small, and tight. So dialating is still a bit of a problem, but it doesn't stop me from doing it like I'm supposed to. Three times a day for me for three months, after surgery,  then once a day for a year after surgery, then once a week after that.  The pain is mainly from the the surrounding muscles that are still swollen and tight, not the vagina itself.  Just over three weeks post-op, I'm still feeling the nerves firing off from time to time, this part of the healing process, and lessens over time. Tylonals help a great deal with any discomfort from dialating.

As for the mental aspect of surgery, I can only liken it to a profound religious experience. The sense of peace and serenity are unmatched in my opinion. It's as though I've looked into the eye of god, and know the universe like it was my own child. It's very enlightening. I feel a sense of freedom I've never known. Being free of unwanted genitalia has given me the power to do things I couldn't do before surgery, like go out in a skirt with no panties    or wear a bikini to the beach. When I see myself in the mirror, I know it's right, and I'm very pleased. Finally after a 22 year transition, I'm complete I was very small prior to surgery and needed skin grafts for enough depth, because of this size issue the tips of my labia minora are very sensate, as they have part of the coronal ridge of my penis head still attached. This combined with the glans used for my clitorous will give me very pleasing sex when it's time for that

I do want to say that this surgery shouldn't be done for sexual reasons. Even though sex is part of it, it's not the whole enchilada. You need to be VERY sure that you really want to be free of male sexual urges, stimulation and release, cause post-op climaxes are lacking that sensation of ejaculating. Personally, I think they're better this way, they go on and on, and on 

To be honest...

I dissociated from the entire SRS/recovery experience... on purpose.  Is the whole process worth it to be myself?  Absolutely!  But hell, major surgery is major surgery... and it can be physically painful and mentally stressful.  Would I go thru it all again to get this point of freedom? Yes.

But I wanted for my memory to skip the difficult aspect of surgery and recovery... So, we engaged in a prolonged dissociation in order to "not remember" the details of prepping for surgery, going under, the hospital experience and the first few weeks of healing... so, while I know it happened, I can't recall the details... they are locked inside the memory experience of one of my altars... at around week 6, "I" came back and was VERY happy to find that the surgery had been a success.

Hi Dusty,
I'm really pleased for you, that the process you used, worked for you. It's obviously brought you to a place, where you have always wanted to be; safely and securely. I'm always interested to hear what works for everyone. I wish every success for the rest of your journey. Lets us know how you are coping and keep in touch. Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa luv
Catherine

It feels like someone had recently kicked you in the groin so bad that you are the hospital recovering from it.  Although you have no recollection of the event.  It's uh, kind of tender down there afterwards.

shayna_lynn,
Can I ask who your surgeon was?  I too am very small.
Amelia

I've heard it said that after a time, you can't really imagine what it must have been like to have that "junk" dangling there, or to feel the effect of the evil twins.


I covet that feeling.