hello everyone. its ray here writting an update on things. well things seem to be getting better yet worse. but i will start on the high notes. so far. as some of you know my folks are building a house. well its finally built and they will start moving out. bad news is my parents dint want me starting t and are willing to go to extremes like getting me kicked out of a the place i may get to live in. may being the key word. anyway another good note is that I'm doing a volunteer course in conservation and land managent. its mostly guys there. and a female instructor. first day i showed up i said I'm vik but Friends call me ray. they looked puzzled n i just blurted out. oh I'm transgender. it was like id hit a brick wall. they all smiled. n in a days time i found myself talking about cars, girls, and games with the guys. the instructorscall me ray and so do the guys. i even had my first game of football with them. n they dint treat me any different than any other guy there. I'm over the moon about that. n i wear my binder each day despite pulling out lantana a very difficult weed i seem fine to work in a physically taxing job. n because i work out and body build i have put the boys there to shame with my six pack. i know I'm rambling but i have never felt so...me until now. the only thing that dampens my mood is some freinds refuse to see me as male. but another plus is i have 6thousand saved up for t and surgery. so if all goes well i will start t by the end of the year and get the op next year. i just had to tell someone. and thanks for all the support here guys n gals. it got me through a bad depression and gave me hope for a future. thanks again.

thats really cool that you fit in that well, i only ever seem to fit in when im stealth. all my friends call me parker now but not all view me as male. on vacation when i was snowboarding my instructor thought i was a cis guy, i was taller then him and my voice was deeper. also a kid of a friend of a family friend thought i was a cis guy and we talked about school and girls and sports, super fun. i only have $1200 saved for T and surgery. good luck man.

thanks, n best of luck to you. n you get to go snowboarding. here i dont get that luxury. ots like desert here in australia. have you come across people who simply tefuse to aknowlege you being male. because right now two of my best mates keep insisting that even after horrmones they will say im a chick. n id hate for me to be chatting to a chick or anyone n be outted by them via a message. because both are males that want to be with me. one being my x bf whos become really clingy. and explanations dont work. but a kick to the face does jokes.