Been reading alot of posts about people feeling God does'nt love them or not knowing how to even have a belief anymore.  Before i say any more, I will tell you, I am far from being perfect.  I did have an epiphany this week.  I realized that I expect God to treat me the same way that my parents and family do.  And I had to ask God to forgive me.  God is a God of love.  He never gives up on anyone.  Maybe the reason some feel a loss of God in their lives is because of the changes going on with transition and the loss that that can bring.  God does'nt go anywhere.  He is the same...yesterday, today, forever. 
For myself, it was very hard to understand how God could love me unconditionally.  Hey, everyone else has always told me I am a screwup, and then dished out the punishment. Why should'nt God?  I finally realized, I expected God to treat me the same.  It was'nt until this past week, dealing with some hard stuff, that I got it.  God does'nt change.  His love is unconditional, and if i feel less of His presence...it's not because He went away or moved...it's because I moved away from Him. 

Some of the old timers used to say that those who feel the farthest from God may be the closest.
The scripture that helps me is mind not high things but condescend to men of low estate.
I consider myself to be a man of low estate and I am thankful that the Lord would die for my sins.
Though I can never repay him he died for me.
It's those times when I feel on top of the world I start to worry.
The day to day battle of the devil and the attacks he brings on rather comforts me.
As they used to say. If you're not meeting the enemy's wrath you're probably walking arm in arm with him.
Hope all works out for you man.

I have been questioning myself lately about God being there or not. Then i have an issue and i am praying to God for help. Oh my problems are not big. Simple things like dental issues. I do know i long to be gone from this world and in the next. Right now i must take care of my mom as i am her caregiver. Another thing happened recently that i found out. My oldest sons mother has colon cancer. She is in stage 3. She is a vegetarian and runs and well her family has no history of it. I asked God to take it from her and give it to me. That day i asked i started to have stomach issues but they next day they were gone. I am now because of my teeth fasting to give them a rest from food causing them any issues. I am on an antibiotic which has helped. I also fast usually once a yr anyway. I ususally do it in the dead of winter but i started today. I normally do it for like 15 days. No food just juice and coffee and maybe something like a hot chili sauce to do a deep cleansing of my intestines.

Oh its nice to see you back del. I am glad you came back. I too tried other christian groups in my life but heard some not so nice condemnations of others there. Yes there are some here who do believe. I know i do. However, i get confused like i should be a part of them. I just want to do my time here on earth and serve above and stay ready for that day when i go.

My life is a lonely life but its mine and well to follow after any group who says they are for God but would then act differently than what God teaches surely has me confused as you Del too are confused.

I like what one here who has taught me much recently. She has the site  http://www.youtube.com/user/transspiritual which does point out how that gods does love us and any group who would condemn or judge will be those who God will say I NEVER KNEW YOU. Because those groups can push you away from God.

Well again welcome del and i pray you too find strength in God.

Thank you for the welcome.
The word of God does say let those who are strong bear the infirmities of those who are weak or sick.
It is a great way of manifesting faith and trust in the Lord.
We have to remember as well that sometimes things may not go as we wish because in ways we do not see it is for the best. I hope all goes well with your mom.
The best any of us can do that are Christians is to take it one day at a time loving and serving the Lord and wait the appointed time to put off the tabernacle.
It's always good to see a fellow believer. It's a real blessing.
Just being a true Christian (not of those who say they are and live for this world) is lonely. I can't imagine what it would be like to be a real Christian and transgender.
Once again, I hope all goes well with your mom and thank you.

I'm not a religious person but I do know this, whatever is bouncing around in our heads has an effect on our lives.  Feeling guilty?  Plan on suffering.  Feeling positive?  Enjoy life. 

There are over six billion human worlds on this earth, every one of them unique.  And there are over six billion gods (of a sort), each one in control of one of those worlds.  Some let their worlds run wild, some are very much in control.  And some know how to go with the flow.  We have a choice as to how we will live life.

As far as praying, the only prayer that really ever made any sense to me is the Serenity Prayer.  Strength.  Wisdom.  Acceptance.   Nice combination.

Yes Julie some people do have basic decency and do not follow God or a God and well to me they won't be judged for not believing. They has natural righteouness. My sister is one of those too.    However, my other sister is a christian and is very judgemental. However, she does good things with her orphanages in romania and wells she has drilled in africa.

I agree that taking one day at a time is best.  The Bible tells us to not worry about tomorrow, just think on today.  To Amazon D, I also have dental issues that I pray about.  I believe that no problem is too big or too small to bring boldly before God.  I also know the pain of lonliness.  I have a DVD by Charles Stanley entiltled, "Facing our lonliness."  I really like his preaching.  Bible based and down to earth. 
It's so disheartning to see,  that many that profess to be christian, are also the ones that promote hatred and are so judgemental.  That in their self-righteousness......they cause many, to lose their faith.  I am so very thankful that that was'nt my experience.  But for the grace of God, it could have been.