i feel lost everybody against me Especially my mother, sometimes I feel she do not care and hate me she always hurt me  she keep saying why I'm not like other people(she means  girls) she keep try to change me even if she know thats impossible, , finally she said stop try to  become a man because you will not become one her words like a knife break my heart I do not have job I feel everyone using me because they know I can not support myself      i know they will get bored of me and i will became homeless I wish to die soon i am so tired of this miserable life You are my only hope What  do you think should I do ? just tell me please I am in terrible psychological situation
PAECE.

Jossef, PLEASE, try to stay alive. The world is richer with you in it. Please, please, stay alive. If it's possible, can you emigrate to some other country and live there?

That sucks dude.

Your mom is just upset because having a child who is trans, or different in any way, is difficult to deal with so she takes it out on you. But really it doesn't matter if she thinks you're a man or not because you're not transitioning for her.

Best thing to do is start building a good resume and hand them out everywhere you can. Getting a job and possibly moving out I think is the best route because once your parents or other people see you taking care of yourself they tend to deal with transitioning better. Makes them feel that you're mature enough to make a decision like that.

I'm so sorry.  Parents are meant to be supportive and when they turn on you it's as if your entire foundation is gone. 

The thing is, your Mother is not your only hope.  We are not your only hope.  Even though many are happy to be supportive here.  You are your only hope.  You are the one who discovered the truth about yourself.  You are the one who was brave enough to go to your parents and tell them what they didn't want to hear.  You are the one who is standing his ground.

Clearly you are strong enough to survive this.  It's not going to be easy but you can do it.  In time, you will find people outside your biological family who will appreciate you for who you are.  Not for who they rather you would be.  Parents tend to have a predetermined idea of who you are.  If you break that, they get upset.  It's their fault for planning out your destiny for you.  You deserve to find your own path.  Don't let anyone else plan it out for you.

Just keep putting one foot in front of the other.  You will get there, I promise.  Just hold on.

Thanks for your support  to me and all your advice I do not know how to thanku. you given me hope again after i lost interest in life, I swear to you I will do what I can to be safe and ok you are my family u all my  familly and thank you thank u sooooooooooooooo much You were always by my side and I swear  I'll be by your side forever
love u all