I'm not really new to the forums But I've been inactive for what feels like a really long time. I figured a reintroduction was appropriate.
If anyone remembers me I had a bad breakup with my girlfriend of four years that really took a toll on me. she claims it wasnt related to my dysphoria but I refuse to believe it didnt play a pivotal role.
either way the trauma of it all led me to push it all way down...down to a point where I thought I was ok and wouldn't need to face ti again.
heh but of course my returning here means that I was wrong >.<
So much has changed in my life since then that I feel like a completely different person, I'm stronger, more confident, and I've built an actual life.
I've had so many things happen to me in such a short amount of time. things had been really crazy to say the least...there are a few stories which I someday may share haha.
though through it all i had to get my life together, and I feel like ive achieved some stability, and thats when it all started coming back. and this time its different. but in a much better way. I'm not as scared. I have more confidence and nothing holding me back this time...besides money >.>...I learned my lesson to not let it consume my life. This time I'm approaching it slower with a clearer head.
so thats that! I've already begun by seeking a new, closer therapist and planning for the future. I dont know how often I will actually be getting on here but it already feels good to be back^.^
