Nickie,
Have you had a thought of maybe talking to people here? Engage in conversation. Find interest in other people. Give someone a hug? Do something for someone you don't know? Maybe even a random act of kindness, or just being feminine and telling another woman that she is looking good. Telling a guy that he is a typical guy, and blowing him a kiss, just 'cos you are a girl and you can.
Why do this?
Because we are family.
I love my sisters and brothers, no not some soppy crap, but true care for my friends.
Relax.
Take your time.
Hugs Sis
Cindy