I cry all the time. You have to.
I don't work in medicine these days, and I've never been in your role, but I've seen a lot of death and disease. It's hard. The sorrow is not for the dying or the dead.
The rest of us have to keep going, and find balance.
I do think my life is hard, and my problems are not minor. I'm not going to list tragedies, because that's not the point, but it is good to be reminded occasionally that simply being alive is pretty sweet.
What you are doing is important. Thank you for doing your job.