More like having a bad appendix removed it was to me.

Yet, from pretty much immediately post-op SRS and GRS sounded plain wrong to me and I now really prefere GCS (Gender Corrective Surgery). Don't ask me for the rational, it is just what came up for me - I feels much more what actually happened. Just a correction.

I always felt female and so nothing changed as such just that I had a correction done - if you can see what I mean?

GID is gone, blown away with the wind - quite amazing. It became a non-issue completely - nothing to GID about anymore, even if you e.g. still have to shave some times.

The funny thing through - having had to do all this tucking over some 2 odd years left some automatic reactions :-) It happens that I want to tuck absentmindedly - and woopsy there is nothing to tuck... he he.

Also since some of the top of the glanse is now the clit - and it is still jolly sensistive now the hand goes there and wants to pull foreward the foreskin (another 'auto-reaction') --- it will take a short while for your brain to figure it out I guess.

Lastly when you pee the "expectation" is that it comes out in a place in front, it now does not hey!, it also will need some short time to get used to that different sensation too.

Axelle

Quote from: Axélle on October 13, 2011, 12:29:47 AM
GID is gone, blown away with the wind - quite amazing. It became a non-issue completely - nothing to GID about anymore, even if you e.g. still have to shave some times.

So your GID is gone. Why is that, could it be because you had genital surgery?

Isnt that what other post-ops have been saying all this time? Your cured, wow.

Isnt that what I was saying?

This simply blows me away when combined with the other posts you've made.

Hm... a cure. go figure.


P.s. Maybe you shouldnt tell the pre-ops/non-ops/cd/tv folks. They might disagree with you. Cmon, a cure? Its a post-op secret dont you know?

Thank you Annah for the welcome back.

Im glad your GID is gone. But your still planning surgery? Would you be having your surgery to be congruent and have female genitals? That is the usual reason for surgery.

Best of luck with it. I may not be around when you make it back online. Good luck.

Quote from: Valeriedoeswcs on October 14, 2011, 01:09:16 PM
Thank you Annah for the welcome back.

Im glad your GID is gone. But your still planning surgery? Would you be having your surgery to be congruent and have female genitals? That is the usual reason for surgery.

Best of luck with it. I may not be around when you make it back online. Good luck.

I'm getting the surgery, not to cure a GID but because I am getting back what my birthing doctor took away from me back in 1974.  Thank you for the luck

Quote from: Annah on October 14, 2011, 02:51:53 PM
I'm getting the surgery, not to cure a GID but because I am getting back what my birthing doctor took away from me back in 1974.  Thank you for the luck

I am guessing since you havent said, you are referring to a vagina, female genitals. And that it is something you believe you need for your life, otherwise you wouldnt do it. It has meaning to you. Good for you, a vagina. You will love it. I love mine.

Quote from: Valeriedoeswcs on October 14, 2011, 11:28:20 AM
So your GID is gone. Why is that, could it be because you had genital surgery?

Isnt that what other post-ops have been saying all this time? Your cured, wow.

Isnt that what I was saying?

This simply blows me away when combined with the other posts you've made.

Hm... a cure. go figure.


P.s. Maybe you shouldnt tell the pre-ops/non-ops/cd/tv folks. They might disagree with you. Cmon, a cure? Its a post-op secret dont you know?

Gender issues go deeper than genitals. I've opted to have no surgeries down there because it won't cure my issues. Coming to terms with who and what I am will do that. But to those that opt for SRS, I feel it is a good option.

Many of the younger generation has issues more with the body dismorphic disorder more so than gender genital disorder. I am fine with my birth genitals as my genitals DO NOT define me. Again this is my opinion... I've always wondered why srs actually "felt" like.

So you do not want a vagina? That is certainly your choice. No one should have surgery who does not need it.

This is the post-op forum, so those that are here in this forum chose surgery to have their body be congruent, want and need a female body. It is Male to Female. A vagina. A penis does not belong on a woman as it is a male appendage, male genital. That is what I did and many thousands of others have done.

Quote from: Mahsa the disco shark on October 14, 2011, 06:05:45 PM
Gender issues go deeper than genitals. I've opted to have no surgeries down there because it won't cure my issues. Coming to terms with who and what I am will do that. But to those that opt for SRS, I feel it is a good option.

Many of the younger generation has issues more with the body dismorphic disorder more so than gender genital disorder. I am fine with my birth genitals as my genitals DO NOT define me.

You're not the only who believes this, trust me! Its what i love about all of us. We can all be so different and yet have some things in common!

Diversity is a wonderful thing. I think thats what I enjoy most being trans...to see so many differences of lifestyles. It's like a rainbow unto itself!!

Quote from: Valeriedoeswcs on October 14, 2011, 04:05:40 PM
I am guessing since you havent said, you are referring to a vagina, female genitals. And that it is something you believe you need for your life, otherwise you wouldnt do it. It has meaning to you. Good for you, a vagina. You will love it. I love mine.

correctomundo!! i love mine

Quote from: Annah on October 14, 2011, 02:51:53 PM
I'm getting the surgery, not to cure a GID but because I am getting back what my birthing doctor took away from me back in 1974.  Thank you for the luck

what your birthing doctor took away?  what did he/she take away?

this isn't the thread for what happen when i was born. I did explain tho a couple weeks ago in a related thread.

Quote from: Annah on October 14, 2011, 06:18:33 PM
You're not the only who believes this, trust me! Its what i love about all of us. We can all be so different and yet have some things in common!

Diversity is a wonderful thing. I think thats what I enjoy most being trans...to see so many differences of lifestyles. It's like a rainbow unto itself!!

I try not to think that much about rainbows. Flashback memories of when I served in The Castro street army. I couldn't post the stuff here because of what happened to people's heads. I wake up in a hot sweat and Rey Rey turns on the light and says, "You were having that dream u were in the Castro again?"....

Then I scream, "Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!"

And basically, I agree with you a 100% on the statement above.

Quote from: Annah on October 14, 2011, 06:24:40 PM
this isn't the thread for what happen when i was born. I did explain tho a couple weeks ago in a related thread.

go ahead and share

What does Srs actually feel like? Like a crocodile bit you between the legs --- at least once you come out of anaesthetics.

Latter on it's just an alligator, and THAT for some time.

Axelle

Quote from: Axélle on October 15, 2011, 04:37:57 AM
What does Srs actually feel like? Like a crocodile bit you between the legs --- at least once you come out of anaesthetics.

Latter on it's just an alligator, and THAT for some time.

Axelle

What are crocodiles and alligators?

Quote from: Mahsa the disco shark on October 15, 2011, 02:45:09 PM
What are crocodiles and alligators?

If I remember correctly, the crocodile must be what took that blessed bite out of me. The alligators were probably the catheter and bag I had to live with for a week, plus the vaginal packing that made me waddle for a week. Once those were removed, the only real challenge was the frequent dilating and the increased stent size very few weeks.

Dilating is forever.

Robyn

You wake up in pain, grouchy and groggy and begging for morphine. Then they give it to you and your memory sort of blacks out. A year and 7 months and 2 follow-up surgeries later you're still not feeling completely back to normal. There's residual soreness and numbness even this far out. (Funny, I chose my surgeon partly for his one-stage procedure, but so far it's taken 3 surgeries to get it right.)

One week after SRS you realize you never imagined it would feel this right to be free of those dangly bits. At 20 days your first "big O" simply blows your mind.

Riding in the wheelchair in the airport on the way home you feel every bump and vibration and it's uncomfortable. You feel like a delicate flower, or a banana that's been peeled.

Then after a year or so when the swelling has gone down you can look at your equipment in the mirror and feel really good about having something that you've always wanted and always felt should be there.

It was very painful, the most pain I ever felt in my life. But the first week goes quickly

Link: Montreal - Day 1 Waking After Surgery

QuoteI only vaguely remember being wheeled back into my room, I was sensing the jostling of the cart and it swinging around in different directions. I could hear french voices around me and the outline of those that moved me to my room. I was only half conscious and drifted out again. I felt safe and taken care of.

The patients rooms are one floor below the operating theatre and recovery area, so it was a quick ride down the elevator. The room I was in was for two people. I was sharing mine with another girl who also had her surgery that morning. A curtain was drawn between us so we had a little privacy. She had the window and I was close to the door. My new immediate world was very small and the next few days would be focused on the bed, the nurses coming in and out in seemingly random patterns and noises from the world outside the room that are never seen ...and my roommates own recovery.

At some point I awoke and the first thing I noticed was feeling a strong steady dull ache in my genital area. I looked down to my feet and there was an impressively high mound of bandaging and dressing rising from under the blanket between my legs. I was very aware that it would be best not to even touch that area with my hands. I was still very groggy.

I also felt a tight, hot pressure in my chest. My hands went to my chest and it felt strange, my skin tight and with a different shape all across it. When I looked under my gown I saw my breasts for the first time. The skin was very tight with alot of swelling in the upper chest area. My breasts rose fully on each side with wonderful curves in a beautiful shape and the nipples swollen as well, rising high. I thought they were beautiful and I was very happy. It was a good moment as I acknowledged my clearly female body. I was struck at how tiny and flat my stomach was in comparison to my chest.

The first night was difficult because of the anesthesia. I had difficulty breathing and had coughing spasms with spitting up into a basin ...it was hard, to be frank. I had tears several times. The nurses were so wonderful, helping me through that first night as I choked and coughed up the anesthesia. I came to love the night nurse for her kindness, gentleness and giving of herself. I will remember her forever for being there for me in that tough time.

As part of the first night protocol, they had me stand and walk a few steps by my bed. Lucky for me there was a kind male nurse to help me get up from my bed. I held onto his arm and a moment later I was up. It felt good. He steadied me and I took a few steps, holding on his arm the whole time. They were so kind and giving of themselves. I have to give them credit. Again, I will love them forever for being there for me.

Once I was back in bed they changed my dressing. I could see all the bandaging as they changed it, so much of it. There is a drain used to remove blood from the wound site that collects in a small, attached  plastic container that has a small pump for emptying. They pumped alot out of me. Yes, it is messy, there is alot of blood. The dressing changes and drain pump were a big part of the first night. The nurse came by often and stopped by when she was finished with her shift and stroked my arm saying goodnight.

That is what it was like.

One post where there is a quote of a post of mine, but the source is missing.

Re: Montreal - Day 1 Waking After Surgery

QuoteQuote from: Valeriedances on April 23, 2010, 06:53:32 pm

    On the 2nd day I became very worried about how it looked, there was so much swelling. I was worried I was deformed and had a panic attack that lasted nearly a day. I knew that the rise of the mound should not look like that ...and I got scared. The nurses tried to reassure me. But it was hard to accept and I was even thinking of having to suicide if it was deformed. I had told myself before the surgery of the risks I was taking and that would be an option if it didn't work out right. At least I had tried to transition. I wasn't thinking very rationally between the drugs, pain, and shock to my body.

    The things we put ourselves through...

    It wasn't until the Dr. doing the rounds checked my roommate and said they looked exactly the same size of swelling, that I started to think it was okay.

    Then back at the residence the nurses all assured me my result was normal, and good, in fact. So I finally let go of that fear.

Here is another thread with missing posts. There are some quotes about me where the source is missing.

Thinking About ValerieDances

QuoteI had the stent removed on Monday which was such a great relief, and the catheter on Tuesday. So each day brought big gifts.

And I was finally able to sleep once back at the residence in a private room.

Began dilation 3 days ago, am in awe of everything actually. Even through the swelling, bruises, stitches and other surgery effects, the result is beautiful to me ...as I see how it may be, through all that, once it is healed.

Pain is at a discomfort level with only taking Tylenol now. There is certainly at times more pain, but is manageable.

My smile was shaken for a while from the lack of rest, but it's back now and getting stronger each day.

I will share more once I am home and am comfortable. Thanks for thinking of me.

Still walking funny,

Valerie

Here is another with missing source...
Re: Twelve Days Post-Op

QuoteQuote from: Valeriedances on May 05, 2010, 12:00:36 pm

    I'm still trying to find the right depth and pressure. I seem to have lost depth, but I think it is more that the swelling has gone down greatly. Measuring from the side, it seems I lost 1/2" at least ...possibly a little more. But logic tells me it's the swelling of the labia that confuses the measuring.

    Another thing I am trying to learn is how much pressure to bear. I want as much depth as possible, so I am tempted to stretch the wall and keep pressure. But that is not good I think.

    Maybe our dilators are differnt. I use two different sizes. #1 is easy. #2 is tight and I can't go quite as deep.

Who knows. I know many, many posts are gone. Its all messed up. Thanks for looking into it. It could well be there is nothing we can do.

At least the current readers can get a sense of what SRS is like (the topic of the thread) from some of the few saved quotes.

Okay. Thanks for looking into it.

goodnight.