I try so hard to not crossdress, but this urge comes over me at different times, and I have to go find a dress, high heels, wig, and get dolled up like a woman. For me this is my sex. I love looking at myself in the mirror, especially when i have high hells, pantyhose, and a skirt on it is so hot. I have gone out a few times and guys stop in their cars and try and pick me up, once a guy stopped and said how much? I use to think for so long this crossdressing was just a fetish, but I am not so sure anymore, I feel these are major gender issues, and I may be a transsexual. Is there any out there that have had these same experiences and urges. Am I gay, a ->-bleeped-<-, transsexual?

no one can answer this question but you and having a therapist to guide you through these questions are a good idea.

I would encourage you to see a gender psychologist to make sure where you stand in all of this.

Also, just a little advice: you may wanna modify your wardrobe. If a guy pulls you over and asks "how much?" that isn't a good thing....for trans or cisgender girls

Have christmas' come round and you've thought buy that nice dress this year you've seen, shoes, tights but you then thought waste of money get on with life, but you've known for a long while (childhood?) that your life is just not being lived, you're an outsider a popular one maybe but an outsider (good in some ways)  Have their been times you've completely felt life another woman is living? I used to rationalize that as I never felt empathy with any man because he was a man it was because I too was a man, but that makes no sense, whatever you feel in the very centre of you that gives that warm feeling that's who you are.

Just some thoughts I hope they help

Yes, you definitely need to talk to someone about this. Obsessions tend to be the result of repression, though. Even if one's feminine inclinations are not a dominant trait, you can have old overwhelming urge thing if you try to repress it. I experienced this myself in the early days of exploring my self with respect to gender ID. It does not necessarily mean you're transsexual, although that's possible. Masculinity and femininity are present in everyone in varying degrees. There's vastly more people who are casual crossdressers, guys who like to wear silky undies, or just wear long hair because it feels feminine to them. A very small percentage of us are transsexual, though.  This forum just happens to be where a large number of those hang out to share advice.

I'd say consider ways to explore this part of yourself in a gradual manner. Write down a list of what you like about this. All you seem to know thus far is that you like wearing women's clothing. That should be no big deal, but in our society it makes people go all heebie-jeebie for nothing. You need do some self exploration before reaching any conclusions.

I beleive many start out thinking it is merely a passing fetish. With me age seemed to be a determing factor. As I got older my need to be femme increased. I accepted this part of my personality and feel very comfortable with myself. By all means Do Not purge your female attire and makeup. The urge will return. Purging and buying anew becomes very expensive.

I like so many wanted to crossdress long before I ever tried it for the first time and when I did it felt normal even though I've no desire to become a woman.  I've done the purging, throwing away all my clothes and lingerie, hoping that going cold turkey would somehow end my crossdressing.  But our need is not caused by a drug nor an illness. We were born this way as the result of various chemical and hormonal influences which affected the development of our mind and body whilst we are still growing within our mothers womb.

Talk to a therapist. They can help you through the process and help you decide what you want to do. But I totally agree with Annah, if guys are stopping and asking how much, that is not good news at all.
No matter what your sexual preference or 'degree' of femininity, you do not want to preyed upon by men seeking that sort of experience. You are placing yourself in danger, unfortunately it is a fact of life that sexual predators are out there and they prey on woman.

So keep safe.

Cindy

Try dressing more like a woman in your age group and see how that makes you feel.
Only you can know if you are gay or straight. The majority of crossdressers are straight.  Read as much as you can find and see how you relate. Find yourself a counselor or therapist experienced with gender issues.   

Quote from: Annah on September 29, 2011, 09:31:39 PM
no one can answer this question but you and having a therapist to guide you through these questions are a good idea.

I would encourage you to see a gender psychologist to make sure where you stand in all of this.

Also, just a little advice: you may wanna modify your wardrobe. If a guy pulls you over and asks "how much?" that isn't a good thing....for trans or cisgender girls

Annah hit it spot on