I am 3 months into HRT and only partially transitioning at this time, however a good 75% of my dysphoria has since faded. Though much of what I've written below will seem I am talking about myself (and I am), I do mean it to be applied possibly towards your situation.
My current job is very masculine in nature and at first I forced myself to switch roles every time I'd go to work, though this was pre-HRT. Once I began HRT, I'd say probably a month or two months into it, I decided to stop the masculine role at work, which also included the voice, and just be myself; if they were to fire me simply for such, so be it. Again, now 3 months into it, they don't care. Sure I've gotten some weird looks, but nothing ever beyond that. I never could transition clothing as we wear a unisex uniform (As a disclaimer, I only gave up the masculine
role at work, nothing was physically transitioned. If you are going to physically transition at work, don't just do it without any notification to HR before hand). Point being, it took away a part of that dysphoria. I no longer feel depression and anxiety when going to work, though I am currently seeking a new transgender friendly job, as my job duties are still far too masculine for my liking. Moving on!
At home and socially, I have again partially transitioned. I do not regulate my voice at all, anywhere. Simply by allowing my voice to go where it goes and working as much as possible on feminizing it, the dysphoria has again faded substantially. Clothing wise I am partially transitioned, as I mostly wear women's casual attire only (and women's underwear of course, along with the casual clothing being pants, t-shirts, shoes & socks/flip-flops). But even being partially transitioned has silenced the dysphoria even further. However, there are days I look at myself in the mirror and feel disgusting, and instantly revert to telling myself, "Just put on something guy like and fit the disgusting part you look today," and I used to give in. But
do not do that! If you want the dysphoria to go, you cannot revert to the very thing causing the dysphoria.
Here's something I did and it seemed to have helped quite a bit. If you're not ready to make the huge leap of ridding of all guy clothing and wearing only women's clothing, go through your current guy clothing and separate it into two piles. One pile is your "transition" clothing, in that when you wear it, despite it being guy clothes, it makes you feel good, somewhat feminine and seems to calm the dysphoria. The second pile is the clothing you know for a fact makes you feel masculine and has that dysphoria screaming in your mind all day long. Now, get rid of pile #2. I needed money at the time so I sold as much of that clothing as I could and donated the rest. Even though I was still wearing guy clothing, just the relief of knowing there is no "fall back" clothing to turn to, was a
huge calming of the dysphoria. From that point, throughout time, I began replacing the remaining clothing with women's clothing that resembled the guys, however, different enough to noticeably be women's so I wasn't just spinning my wheels. As my transition progresses, I continue swapping clothing to more feminine in nature, until I am finally ready/look the part to wear the clothing I really want to. That, to me, is transitioning. Yes, you're going to spend a lot of money, however, I will spend whatever it takes knowing it will release me from a life sentence in the mental prison I once was in (not to be taken literally).
The biggest thing I can tell you that will calm the dysphoria is
be yourself. If you are trying to act masculine, stop trying and act the way you naturally act. If you force yourself to talk with a masculine toned voice, stop forcing that voice and just let yourself speak. If you alter your attitude, opinions, personality, etc. - don't. Speak your mind, let your attitude be what it is and show your true personality. Nothing keeps the dysphoria around more than shunning the inner girl in you. Be yourself and don't make transitioning the
entire focal point of your life, however, work at ending the role swapping. Go about your day, shrugging off the negative and live for the positive. You'll do fine, but you have to actively pursue the change. Most of all, don't worry! Worrying serves no purpose and only escalates the anxiety, depression and dysphoria. Hang in there
