I'm having a lot more bad days with my breasts and body in general these days.

It's worst when I go out feeling pretty good about myself and then catch a glimpse of myself in a shop window and suddenly freak out about how girly and curvy my body looks.


I also wanted to add...

Quote from: NathanO3o on November 01, 2011, 07:51:10 PM
They also say testosterone would stunt height, i dont see how seeming in cis-guys it's one of the things that makes them taller but meh. Can't win with doctors and Therapists. ಠ_ಠ *Has mini rage in my room about everything*

I KNOW RIGHT?!

Don't even get me started on the incompetence and ignorance of UK doctors xD

One of the doctors I asked about transition looked at me like I was completely off my rocker and said "you can't just take some pills and become a man you know"

Sometimes, when I have to use the bathroom, I get so incredibly annoyed and frustrated that it severely affects my mental state. Which is really kind of ridiculous.

And sometimes I just disassociate completely and get this weird, numb, disconnected feeling. You ever been on really GOOD painkillers, or slept on your arm so bad you couldn't feel it or move it in the morning? It's kind of like that, except all over.

Crying, though, I try not to do. I get angry at myself when I cry. Which just starts the cycle over again.

Quote from: Jeatyn on November 02, 2011, 06:15:50 AM
I KNOW RIGHT?!

Don't even get me started on the incompetence and ignorance of UK doctors xD

One of the doctors I asked about transition looked at me like I was completely off my rocker and said "you can't just take some pills and become a man you know"

D8< OMG. i know right? asdfghjkl someone let me move to america with them XD lol,

and that "you can't just take some pills and become a man" thing, "Most considerate doctor in the world award goes to..... not him" 

D8< *super-outrage-moment*

my "GP" , when i brought up the fact i was trans did pretty much all he could to avoid the subject and kept saying how damn dangerous everything was.

I don't get it with english doctors, just... they don't seem to be even educated on the basics of this stuff.

Quote from: Nick on November 01, 2011, 09:18:27 PM
Im so sorry! That sucks But like you said! in the future it will all be good! And like you i have no patience lol ayyyy

Yeah, just gotta look to the good sides and that, my life is going by pretty quick so thats good ~i.sleep.almost.18.hours.a.day.so.it's.over.quickly~

Quote from: Derek on November 02, 2011, 09:30:26 AM
Sometimes, when I have to use the bathroom, I get so incredibly annoyed and frustrated that it severely affects my mental state. Which is really kind of ridiculous.

And sometimes I just disassociate completely and get this weird, numb, disconnected feeling. You ever been on really GOOD painkillers, or slept on your arm so bad you couldn't feel it or move it in the morning? It's kind of like that, except all over.

Crying, though, I try not to do. I get angry at myself when I cry. Which just starts the cycle over again.

You could try this to help with the curves thing?

~another.probably.bad.advice.moment~ (this is what i try because i have wide hips and a big butt ( ಠ_ಠ damn it )) when you walk try to push your hips forward and lean slightly back a bit like this --> \  <--- but a tad more up-right, and try wearing hoodies, but keep it open, this lets the back of it hang down of your shoulders so it would give the effect that your body is flat on both sides, as for hips, try wearing trouses low around the hips instead of the waist, this to me atleast seems to make them appear more straight |   |instead of (   ).

I hope that helps in some way, sorry if it didn't make sense, i'd draw what i mean instead to explain easier but i cant figure out how to upload ಠ_ಠ