so im on hormones, full time, Hormones wont make me convincing, I have a big nose i want to get fixed, I even self harmed in the past because i  hate it so much, Im supposed to be happy but im not, I feel trapped, i get bullied  at college and i have no way of making money as i dont have ANY confidence whatso ever, I feel like breaking down crying every day, I hate myself, Im going to tell my psychiatrist tomorrow about my nose issues and see if i could get it funded through the NHS, I don't know what to expect im scared they will stop giving me hormones because of my self harming, so upset not happy at all

I know how u feel, i am not transgender but i feel exactly like you. I hate my body and myself- when i look in the mirror i see somebody else, not me anymore. Ive had this problem for a couple of years and i hate it. At least what u have can be fixed, u can have surgeries, u can get hormones, whatever u need pretty much. And u are a pretty girl, u are very passable u should feel happy that you are still young and starting everything now, your nose can be fixed if u wanted to, u can have srs, u can take hormones  unlike me who cant do anything to change what i hate. Feel happy that u live in a time where it is possible to change ur body to what u really feel like. Things will get better for you dont worry.

  Awe     The first year of transition is always the hardest but you've got the potential to be a very pretty trans girl, i've seen your pic's and you look awesomely beautiful Hannah plus you're still pretty young so hormones will do alot for you, just hang in there.


  Being trans sucks ik....butttt it does get better trust me. You still have your whole life ahead of you, don't throw it away so easily & about nose surgery yeah if that's what you want go for it but i'd wait to see how the hormones affect your face before going under the knife, your face shape might fill in just right and be in-sync with your nose.


  Hang in there girl! - xo

Off-topic but you look EXACTLY like my younger brother's ex-girlfriend (she's cisgender). Exactly like her, it's creepy. You're really cute.

I'm sorry to hear about your troubles, I hope things get better for you. Keep your head up <3

Quote from: HannahWhettonxo on November 07, 2011, 05:54:06 PM
so im on hormones, full time, Hormones wont make me convincing, I have a big nose i want to get fixed, I even self harmed in the past because i  hate it so much, Im supposed to be happy but im not, I feel trapped, i get bullied  at college and i have no way of making money as i dont have ANY confidence whatso ever, I feel like breaking down crying every day, I hate myself, Im going to tell my psychiatrist tomorrow about my nose issues and see if i could get it funded through the NHS, I don't know what to expect im scared they will stop giving me hormones because of my self harming, so upset not happy at all

Hormones won't make you convincing?  Are you kidding me?  Based off your photo, you absolutely pass and beyond that, you're beautiful.  Look, not every single ciswoman out in the world has the perfect image that we feel we must mimic.  There are plenty of ciswomen who have a big nose, who have a big forehead, who have big ears, etc.  You've gotta ease up on the negative and take a look at the positive.  Let's just assume your nose plays a negative part in your passing image.  You're talking about roughly 95% passing (based off your face alone) and 5% not passing due to your nose (which your nose is not an issue in my opinion).  You're gonna tell me that you're gonna focus on the 5% when you've got 95% going for you?!  Now, if you have plans one day for cosmetic surgery on your nose, that's fine.  But for now, you've gotta try brightening your spirits girl!  What do you get bullied at college for?  Just because you're a woman does not mean you cannot stand your ground and tell people to back off.  People only succeed in bullying if their victim gives in.

Look, I understand I may sound like I'm being rough on you and I don't mean it negatively, I'm just trying to get you to realize you've got a lot going for you, and that should be your focus.  We all have got imperfections and things we just cannot stand.  But if you have any plans of overcoming your frustrations, and I believe you do since you made this post, you need to look past them.  I know you're done with this, I know you don't want to feel this way day after day and I know you want to be happy.  To heal from this, it starts with you.  You have to tell yourself and those who belittle you, enough.  Gain control of your life and shrug off the small things - they don't matter.  Remember, you do not have to be alone in this.  We are here to help you and support you, as is your therapist.  And if ever it becomes too much for you to handle, please please please - drop your worries and seek professional help.  You are worth more than you can imagine.  Hang in there and keep your chin up!  I mean it!  *hugs*

PM me if you need someone to talk to.

+ 1 Amy, well said.

Quote from: HannahWhettonxo on November 07, 2011, 05:54:06 PM
so im on hormones, full time, Hormones wont make me convincing, I have a big nose i want to get fixed, I even self harmed in the past because i  hate it so much, Im supposed to be happy but im not, I feel trapped, i get bullied  at college and i have no way of making money as i dont have ANY confidence whatso ever, I feel like breaking down crying every day, I hate myself, Im going to tell my psychiatrist tomorrow about my nose issues and see if i could get it funded through the NHS, I don't know what to expect im scared they will stop giving me hormones because of my self harming, so upset not happy at all

Honey, I'm 100% convinced that your making nightmares out shadows. I happen to think that your an exceptionally stunning girl, I know that I'd give my left arm to be just half as passable as you. First off, I think that your nose is actually very proportionate to your face, It makes you look hermosa, handsome in a starlet sort of fashion. In fact, many psychologists recognize that the key to being above average in attractiveness is to have one or two 'masculine' features, when you have a set of perfect feminine features you tend to look like Barbie and it actually lessens your attractiveness. If anything, I think you should be grateful for how beautiful you already are, and how your nose helps you in that regard.

I think this is definitely something to mention to your shrink, IMHO you are projecting your fears/disappointment with life in general onto your body.

Quote from: Sam- on November 07, 2011, 06:32:56 PM
Off-topic but you look EXACTLY like my younger brother's ex-girlfriend (she's cisgender). Exactly like her, it's creepy. You're really cute.

I'm sorry to hear about your troubles, I hope things get better for you. Keep your head up <3

Seriously! She reminds of at least three girls in our school who have the exact same features/hair, and they have to beat the boys away with a stick.

Honestly speaking, I think she is more attractive than most cis women.

It makes me really upset that she is taking issue with her appearance, as she is more attractive than many natal women and definitely blows 99.99% of trans women out of the water.