Quote from: Alainaluvsu on November 11, 2011, 11:39:17 PM
Exactly! Geaux Saints! lol! I even wear a Saints jacket. I think the people in subject in this thread would approach anything even closely considered masculine with a crucifix. Maybe they're trying to bottle it up because they hated that they "had" to like that stuff? IDK. The OMG FABULOUS with a forced lisp is 1 played out, 2 annoying as hell.

my femininity isn't an act. I've always been super femme, sorry if people here don't like it. But I'd rather watch UFC or build something. I am not super masculine though.

Just balanced.

Quote from: Mahsa the disco shark on November 11, 2011, 11:43:53 PM
my femininity isn't an act. I've always been super femme, sorry if people here don't like it. But I'd rather watch UFC or build something. I am not super masculine though.

Just balanced.

Pretty much here too. Some people transition or whatever supposedly to be themselves, but end up just distancing themselves from who they once were, and not truly being themselves. If I had to guess, they don't walk around happy. Instead they live in constant fear of being found out or labeled as a guy.

However, I don't like UFC. I like the Saints and video games! And watching Mike Tyson knock ppl out rofl!

Quote from: Alainaluvsu on November 11, 2011, 11:47:48 PM
Pretty much here too. Some people transition or whatever supposedly to be themselves, but end up just distancing themselves from who they once were, and not truly being themselves. If I had to guess, they don't walk around happy. Instead they live in constant fear of being found out or labeled as a guy.

However, I don't like UFC. I like the Saints and video games! And watching Mike Tyson knock ppl out rofl!

I think some of them force it too much. Saying stuff a woman might say and what not... to me, I am the same person. the appearance merely changed.

Quote from: Mahsa the disco shark on November 11, 2011, 11:55:49 PM
I think some of them force it too much. Saying stuff a woman might say and what not... to me, I am the same person. the appearance merely changed.

Likewise. When I transition, it'll be because my appearance finally matches my brain. Nearly the only things that will change will be my clothes, my voice, my name, and me responding to female pronouns.

Quote from: Alainaluvsu on November 12, 2011, 12:12:16 AM
Likewise. When I transition, it'll be because my appearance finally matches my brain. Nearly the only things that will change will be my clothes, my voice, my name, and me responding to female pronouns.

I use the phrase 20% new parts and it's true. But if I remove the makeup, stop the hormones, and shave my head...I'd be that ultra feminine little Ricky again.

XY on the surface, XX in my head.

I like pink, strawberry shortcake, the tinkerbell movies, my little pony, kittens, and stuffed animals.

But, the thing is, I always have.. my entire life.

Of course, I also like a WIDE range of other stuff too ... like the color blue, war games, science / history channel, action movies.... and, again, always have.

So, am I "trying" to be a boy or a girl?

Or, maybe, just some things are fun. "Girly" stuff can be cute and innocent and a nice break from everything. Stuffed animals just feel great (better than a pillow). Yup, I like laying on soft stuff when I am in bed, unless that isn't something an adult should like?

I love metal, South Park, gi joe, transformers, dinosaurs...

I begin to wonder if male and female are just defined by demeanor when it comes to personality?

Quote from: heatherrose on November 12, 2011, 01:54:50 AM

DING DING DING DING

We got a winner here.
Go ahead young lady pick your prize from the top shelf.


I love stuffed animals
I don't dress out of my age or any other bracket.
I've been called a "fashion girl"

Awww thanks. But I want the Hawaiian trip. Margaritaville damnit.

I'm pretty sure that Margaritaville is on another ocean vis-a-via Hawaii.

Quote from: tekla on November 12, 2011, 06:20:40 AM
I'm pretty sure that Margaritaville is on another ocean vis-a-via Hawaii.

Jamaica?

_{Margaritaville is anywhere a Parrothead-ish individual wiggles their toes in the sand, while breathing salt air.}

_{The freshwater variation being, The Redneck Yacht Club.}

Quote from: heatherrose on November 12, 2011, 03:55:50 PM




_{The freshwater variation being, The Redneck Yacht Club.}

I want to meet a guy who has a boat and can take me boating in the SF bay. I am really ->-bleeped-<-ing pissed today.... Just sick of my boyfriend and stuff. Sick of being caged.

If a man did that to me as a boy, I would have kicked his ass...and broken his ribs.

I've noticed it. I want to relive my childhood as a girl, as horrifying an experience as that sounds, but I don't feel the need to be the pretty little princess in pink 24/7. In fact, I don't believe I ever wanted to be a princess either.

I haven't noticed it, but I'm not one to pay attention to minute details such as peoples clothes. I don't think age matters how someone dresses to the extent where its not distasteful or hurting anyone.  Also perhaps people just like what they like or it could be a mixture of both trying to experience childhood again. As for me I wear lolita because  I love the clothes and anything associated with it. My room is filled with things like that.

I honestly don't know many other transpeople IRL, but I do know I love anything hello kitty, especially the gothy hello kitty stuff they had at haloween.

It does make sense that people want to relive their childhoods that they missed, but plenty of 20 something people have hello kitty stuff, so I don't  see my obsessions as too strange.

My life was detoured at puberty and so after i transitioned i wanted to regrow and experience that little girl. But for me it meant being non sexual. The following is something i wrote back in 2001


DR Bushong = http://www.ren.org/Bushong.html
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Subject: Re: Need some advice
From: danielegrl@aol.com (DANIELEgrl)
Date: 8/29/01 8:52 PM Eastern Daylight Time

>>>> I question that I am a man, because my
thought processes are just so different and feminine in most cases.

Please gimme some advice, I'm really lost here. I have no idea what to do.

I appreciate anything you all have to offer, thanks

Mr. Anonymous<<<<

First your a minor. So this post is to your parents. Please share it with them.

Be careful to think your transsexual cause your caring and such. To me it was
that my hormonal differences were too dramatic after experiencing sexuality.
When I got chemically castrated that was the best thing that happened to me. it
took me back to pre-puberty. The time before sexuality. The time when I felt I
was a sister like my sisters. Try some spiranolactone which can reduce your
chemistry to nil without permanency to your reproductive abilities.
Then when your hormonally female you will know that it is only the mind that
can be stimulated which can trigger your concern for sexuality and love. Many
never understand this concept. DR Bushong tried to explain this in his
writings.( however, I don't care for his style of gender clinics which I saw
while I was in Tampa.) Many haven't grasp the need to go back mentally to
pre-puberty. They have a males view of what a woman is. I have been by a fluke
of nature been able to not be sexual for a while and being post op has been
even a greater advantage. I am not saying I am right and what others will say
are wrong. I am just putting things together in a logical perspective. Not
being sexual and being post op for almost 3 years has allowed my little girl to
be nurtured. The world is a tough place. My little girl is as it was
pre-puberty. This spiranolactone will stop the secondary sexual
characteristics from your testis which will help you to experience that which
you feel.
However, this lack of male hormones will also keep you from feeling male too.
It will stop your male puberty which then if taken long enough will allow you
to grow mentally as a female.
Males have testis which produce a secondary testosterone source. Females
usually have a specific protein on their X chromosome that converts their
testosterone like hormones produced by the ovaries into estradiol. This
estradiol is what grows breast. So you won't grow breast but you won't have the
secondary sexual characteristics from the testis as 200 mg a day of
spiranolactone will surely cut that to nil.
Ask your Mom about trying this. It will only last as long as you keep taking
it.

There is much more than what I have shared. I just wanted to share this
minuscule point. Seek a professional counselor, but beware of the money
grubbing type.
Many men are soft and gentle and kind and being or feeling female should be
something that started during the first 5 years. I remember being told I can't
take baths with my sisters anymore. I was so upset. What was different from me?
My sisters giggled my Mom spanked my butt and I spent many years confused. Then
that dreaded testosterone kicked in a wreaked havoc on my life. Anyway I hope
you get the picture. don't make up things be honest or you will eventually
suffer greater pain...
I hope i have offered a clinical view point. bye love Danielle


.............It takes a girl to be able to grow into a womyn. .....

.... Nothing else can become a womyn.....................

I just wanted to report on the developement of my SRS / GRS that i had 4 years ago dec 8th 1998 with DR Toby Meltzer. I have stayed celibate and a virgin. I have allowed myself to find my inner child / little girl before using my neovagina. During this time my mental sex has developed into something which is wonderfully healthy. I when thinking of love have developed a wonderful natural lubrication with the mental sex chain of command system. Here the mind thinking of love stimulates the hypothalamus which stimulates the pituitary to create oxytosin which stimulates the adrenal cortex to produce coitercoisteroids which causes my cowpers gland to secrete a lot of clear sticky fluid...........................

Now i know this is a touchy subject for sharing but i think it is important to understand this function. Many jump from an adult male body running on testosterone to one running on estrogen and into adult female and never allow themselves a chance to develop their little girl / inner child. The little girl needs time to grow and mature. Little girls don't have sex and this is why i didn't as i wanted to experience as much of the little girl as i could before being tempted to just have sexual relationships...................

Little girls grow into big girls / women. I think it is very important to find that little girl and let her grow. Many girl are teases and do dress to impress and tease and attract. This is an important part of transitioning. Just getting SRS / GRS and testing out the new neovagina like a new toy is not giving oneself the time to grow. It causes many to get hardened over misunderstood relationships due to their new equipment / new understanding of being the woman they are. Eating right and keeping a low body fat content is also very important as i have done research to find that animals that are carrying lowered amounts of body fat tend to be healthier when developing their adrenals thus their sexuality. This is important as the body needs to be healthy to have all the right body functions to help when the time comes for a person to have a healthy sex life..........................

Many times touching too quickly another person makes a person mentally dependent on touch as a means of stimulation for their sexuality. However, being a tease and growing your mental sexuality allows for a healthy production of the adrenals and the chain of command which helps to produce this natural wetness from the cowpers gland...........................

I know many so called genetic women get dry over time after their relationships go past the honeymoon stage and sex becomes a choir and not a mental joy but just a physical experience.........................

I am open to hearing from others about the developement of their mental sexuality. Please respond in detail. thanks and bye ........

............. MY REASONING AND INSPIRATION DUE TO MY HEART FELT FEELINGS.............
............. http://www.ren.org/Bushong.html
.......................

A QUOTE FROM DR BUSHONG:

"After years or decades of living, working and building within their male persona, it is often too "expensive" to give up the life, perks, family, etc., one has built up--in order to go back to basics and have an emotionally 12 year old girl grow up--and live in a once male 40+ year old body."


PS: I am still a virgin and now 14 yrs old post op and mentally and physically capable for true love if its meant to be.