I guess there's doubt in my mind that when I start the process for hormones (going to a gender therapist, getting the letter, and then the doctor visits, etc.) that being Androgyn(e) might cause questions about how serious I am because I don't relate to being male or female but rather both. Because I don't want the full 180 that it might dash my chance of, well, hope.

The fact is, though – and I know this, that my body and gender aren't aligned. They don't match. Period. And if I don't make an attempt to try...to try to find a balance now, my outer shell will always be there reminding me more and more what I can't be.

Does that make sense?  I swear this was clearer in my head then trying to type it out.

Uh, if you find a doctor that is also trans-friendly, they usually won't hassle you about it. I do plan to go full circle, but that's only a personal preference. If you express the fact that you feel like the wrong hormones are pulsating through your body, that should be what matters and that is what should be taken care of. I know plenty of people are T who don't plan to get all of the surgeries done.

Thanks, Jason. I think it just means I'll have to do more research (and possibly look at more reviews) than I intended.

Part of the reason for my questioning is that even though there are people who are trans-friendly, I've met plenty who don't believe in, so to speak, a middle ground and I've gotten a lot of rude, if not hurtful, comments. It makes me iffy on how other people might feel or think. *shrugs*

Quote from: Mattie. on November 13, 2011, 06:49:48 PM
Thanks, Jason. I think it just means I'll have to do more research (and possibly look at more reviews) than I intended.

Part of the reason for my questioning is that even though there are people who are trans-friendly, I've met plenty who don't believe in, so to speak, a middle ground and I've gotten a lot of rude, if not hurtful, comments. It makes me iffy on how other people might feel or think. *shrugs*

People tend to be hostile towards what they don't understand.
Some people change their opinions once they realize their assumptions were entirely wrong and others stay fixed on the ignorant ideas that they'd like to believe are true. I am a man, because my mind is what tells every part of me to function, but I am still afraid of people judging me and it's because some people can insist on seeing the world only the way they want it to be; they can't accept everyone, so they fight against everyone who doesn't fit into their "utopia". They sort people into groups and fail to see that everyone is different - everyone has different needs. Trans-people have never done anything wrong to anyone else; we just feel like we are misrepresented by the body we were born in. You are FTM, right? I could recommend some doctors to you. Of course, it depends what area you are in and what your insurance covers, but seeing the right doctor is important to me. The last thing I'd want is a bad experience with someone who may be helping me transition. I could also link you to some trans-resources pages if you like.

More like FTA, but I do have a lot in common with many FTMs. You also hit it right on the button; that's exactly what I'm afraid of; I've struggled with this most – if not my whole – life, and I've found very people who'd take the time to listen. Right now, I don't have insurance; that should change on December 4th though. Fingers crossed. I'm also south of Rochester, Minnesota. If you know any doctors nearby, that would be great, and resources are always helpful, but I can always do more research in my spare time.

I am no where near the Minnesota area, so I can't list anyone on the top of my head. I found this though:
http://www.mntranshealth.org/

I mean, you are going to want to look to someone who caters to trans health issues anyway because being adrogyne can be pretty vague at times.

I figured that much, but it's always hard to know if they're going to understand (?) anyway, but thanks for the link. I'll take a look tonight, and I definitely appreciate it.

I believe that in the latest version of the DSM hormones are spelled out as an appropriate treatment for GID, so if your doctor is 'current' he should have no issue with prescribing them.

Hey Mattie!
As another FtA I totally understand your concern about finding supportive care givers. It was really important for me to find a good therapist. I just looked for gender friendly therapists in the area and emailed them and asked how they felt about non binary folks. I found one that was fully supportive and from where I was when I started therapy to where I was when I left...she was such a great support. She wrote me my hrt letter and she does Skype appts now so I always bring her up with people who are wanting hormone track. I can get you her contact I for if Skype therapy is something that interests you.
When I went to my GP to ask him for the hormone script I told him I was transgender and didn't really elaborate from there and he prescribed me T and has been supportive. Seemingly somewhat confused by me....lol...but supportive!

Thanks, Riven, I hope you're right!

This definitely helps, Sevan. It's nice to hear from someone who started out in my shoes, I guess. And that would be great - I'd definitely be interested in checking out that therapist, and with any luck, she'll be the right fit for me.