My life would be vastly different from the mess it is right now. The only reason it is what it is now is because I was trying very hard to just "fit in". As a result I felt incredibly uncomfortable and ended up very lonely with no friends or hobbies to speak of.
I know that inside, I'm a really outgoing and social person, but I just can't do that right now without being extremely awkward. I never really did get the whole "guy behavior" thing down that well. I also never did get to try a lot of the things that I would've wanted to, especially acting and working with kids. I don't like my voice and kids think I'm creepy ... so yeah.