For me, it's interesting to see how things would turn out back then.

Quote from: Wonderdyke on November 16, 2011, 09:54:35 AM
Hahaha, am I the only one here who is supremely grateful that she won't ever have periods or get pregnant?  I mean, I'm seeing this as a pretty sweet deal, yo.

i'm sure the bleeding all over your panties gets old, so i agree. having babies is supposed to hurt like a mother.

Quote from: Natalie <3 on November 15, 2011, 10:53:47 PM
ya periods i wonder what thats like lol...

like this!

Quote from: BrokenCode on November 15, 2011, 11:41:05 PM
I probably would have been a stuck up bitch. lol. Also I probably would of got pregnant at 15 years of age.

You and I have similiar dreams. Being trans means I can't get pregnant.

Quote from: Wonderdyke on November 16, 2011, 09:54:35 AM
Hahaha, am I the only one here who is supremely grateful that she won't ever have periods or get pregnant?  I mean, I'm seeing this as a pretty sweet deal, yo.

No one says you have to enjoy periods. But if I could go back in time, I would accept them as the admission price for being born a girl. I'm not superior to all the world's past and present girls, so I should get the same things they do, even the (few) bad parts of it.

Quote from: Wonderdyke on November 16, 2011, 09:54:35 AM
Hahaha, am I the only one here who is supremely grateful that she won't ever have periods or get pregnant?  I mean, I'm seeing this as a pretty sweet deal, yo.

I'm sure I'd regret saying this if I actually had to go through it, but I do wish I could go through periods. It's just one of those things to accept about being a girl. Though at least for the time being I'm glad that I can't get pregnant. I don't want to be raising a family yet.

it was hard enough just to get on hrt, it was hard enough to go through the coming out parts, it still is hard dealing with people challenging me on what i am. i know that periods is something i could live without with the package of challenges that came just by being born.

Dreams in which I am a girl just living my life are the best ones I ever have. In them I am contented, at ease. Things are the way they're supposed to be, and all is right with the world.

That said, I don't respond well to thinking about this in the waking world. I just end up getting angry the more I think about how much I've lost and how much more I'm going to lose. I'm always very grateful for dreams where I'm just a girl and that's it, no one questions it. It's an escape from all the pain and anger I've built up over my life. Pain and anger that wouldn't be likely as abundant had I been born with a female body from the outset. I'm getting angry now, so I'm going to stop before I start ranting about how much I hate pretty much everything without meaning it.

If I were cisgender my dad would still love me.

Quote from: xxScarlettxx on November 16, 2011, 10:00:03 PM
If I were cisgender my dad would still love me.

That hit me right in the heart, Scarlett. Right where it hurts most. That's one of the biggest losses I feel, that my dad may not be able to handle being around me anymore. He's trying to keep loving me and to continue being around me, but I know it's hard for him. Daughters need that special relationship with daddy, and we were screwed out of that major league. We don't even get the luxury of calling dad a deadbeat, there's absolutely nothing we can pin it on other than cruel fortune.

Quote from: Sailor_Saturn on November 16, 2011, 09:40:54 PM
Dreams in which I am a girl just living my life are the best ones I ever have. In them I am contented, at ease. Things are the way they're supposed to be, and all is right with the world.

That said, I don't respond well to thinking about this in the waking world. I just end up getting angry the more I think about how much I've lost and how much more I'm going to lose. I'm always very grateful for dreams where I'm just a girl and that's it, no one questions it. It's an escape from all the pain and anger I've built up over my life. Pain and anger that wouldn't be likely as abundant had I been born with a female body from the outset. I'm getting angry now, so I'm going to stop before I start ranting about how much I hate pretty much everything without meaning it.

Tomoe-san, I could almost have written that post. The only significant difference is I've become adept at daydreaming of being a girl. The advantage there is being fully awake and having full control of the content. One way or another, my mind is almost constantly on girl-ness. 

I think of this often..  it definitely depresses me a lot. I have a lot of regrets about my life, i projected my general unhappiness in a lot of interesting ways. I probably would have had alot more friends and most likely i wouldn't be dealing with mental illness.
But being trans has also brought alot of joy to my life, my supportive gender queer boyfriend is the love of my life right now

Quote from: Wonderdyke on November 16, 2011, 09:54:35 AM
Hahaha, am I the only one here who is supremely grateful that she won't ever have periods or get pregnant?  I mean, I'm seeing this as a pretty sweet deal, yo.

I'm grateful for the door prize, but it so wasn't worth the price of admission.

I would be much the same I think, though less shy, and more willing to talk to people. I think I would also hate how talk I am less (genetics says I would still be talk but for a female not tall for a male.

Quote from: Sailor_Saturn on November 16, 2011, 10:08:17 PM
That hit me right in the heart, Scarlett. Right where it hurts most. That's one of the biggest losses I feel, that my dad may not be able to handle being around me anymore. He's trying to keep loving me and to continue being around me, but I know it's hard for him. Daughters need that special relationship with daddy, and we were screwed out of that major league. We don't even get the luxury of calling dad a deadbeat, there's absolutely nothing we can pin it on other than cruel fortune.

I'm glad he's gone, I wish he would have left sooner, he was a douche.

Quote from: xXRebeccaXx on November 17, 2011, 02:09:26 PM
I'm glad he's gone, I wish he would have left sooner, he was a douche.

More of a loss for me than you, then...? Um...congratulations? O_O