Hey guys.
I've been smoking on and off for the past two years now, but now that I'm starting testosterone, I have been trying to boost my willpower to quit. I have cut down MONUMENTALLY, but I still have moments of weakness. My girlfriend has been a huge help, trying to help me set limits so I can monitor how much I smoke a day and try and set goals/cut it down, but there are days where I just get so anxious and stressed and I just snap a little and give in to the temptation.
I am quite proud of how much I've cut down - when I met my girlfriend in June, I would go through about 20 on a bad day. Now, I'm a lot happier and I've been able to average a maximum of 4 a day usually. I just need the extra kick to get rid of those last ones, or even cut that down. I've noticed since I cut down, I'm quite put off smoking at certain times, it'll make me feel nauseous occasionally and that'll be enough for me to stop and put it out. But, when those stressful times come, or I'm out to coffee, I can snap right back into it.
I don't want to maintain this habit through my transition. I'd like to be healthy as possible by the time top surgery becomes a possibility financially - which at earliest, would be this time next year, perhaps give or take a month - and I'd like to keep it that way.
Ex-smokers, or anyone who knows of some good alternatives (besides chewing gum for the oral fixation replacement side of smoking - have tried, can be effective, but I've caved in numerous times) please, help!