this is just a list of my recent successes and failures feel free to add any of yours to the list.

success
1.using male toilets. kinda shell shocked they where putridly filthy.
2.buying guys clothes. my paramilitary style makes me look good. sizing is still dodgy.
3.body building and running
4.doing a course where everyone now calls me ray
5.wearing my binder a lot
6.short hair. i bought hair gel trivial yes but a huge step for me
7.out to a lot of people like 50 maybe
8.quitting smoking
9. get to live alone for a month.

failures
1. parents. mum buys me skirts, makes sure i know im female and rubs my face in the fact i cant be a father.
2. cant get a place because of housing crisis
3.depression about not being in guys clothes full time.because the parents visit
4.mother is checking what i wear under my clothes and fight constantly about me being guyish
5.hesitant to go back to mens toilets still i get a stp none in this town
6. freinds are trying to hold my chest a party because im planning to get top surgery. seriously the joke isnt funny anymore.
7. fighting with people all the time.
8. have a girl in my life but hesitaant bout explaining being trans to her.
9.drinking, smoking, to try n feel better.
10.parents will not leave me alone.
generally no drive in life.


how about you guys. feel free to add as much or as little detail as you want reading posts on sussns helps brighten my day. 

Sorry for your troubles bro, but good job on quitting smoking! Have you tried gently but firmly telling your friends that the jokes are getting old? They should be mature enough now to take it personally.

My successes...
1. Introducing myself as Harry to new people
2. Kinda, sorta, almost hinting at it

Some of my failures...
1. Inconsistent with friends about which name I use
2. Too scared to bring the issue up with my girlfriend again
3. NOT DOING ANY OF MY ESSAYS, DEAR GOD I HAVE SO MANY
4. Smoking like a chimney and letting my girlfriend think I quit

I suck so hard.

Recent successes:
-Already got Christmas gifts for half of my family
-Had 3 successful interviews and have a follow-up interview next week
-Participated in 2 charity walks
-Reconnected with old friends
-Just enjoying life in general

Recent non-successes:
-Still looking for full-time job
-General laziness
-Slacking off on Spanish lessons
-Forgetting to take my shots and wasting half a (10 ml) vial

success.
-wear guys clothes
-use male toilet
-bodybuilding
-short hair

failures
-i still in this country (no rights or ltgb)
-parent not accept me so much
-no job
-no friends

yeah i have tried telling them its not funny but they seem to really not care. they are agravating the dysphoria by saying i have a nice chest. the jokes getting old but i guess you cant have everyones suport but that would be nice. one can only dream.

and jossef you always have us as freinds

wait its that close to chrismas..oh dear. i think i got a lot of running and shopping to do. 

Ray, I can relate man. I'm in the middle of quitting smoking right now. It's Friday today and I had my last cigarette on Monday. I'm fine if I distract myself enough, but now and then it creeps back in and I start to get a craving. But I'm going strong so far.

Successes:
- recently starting T
- going to visit my girlfriend soon
- I get to spend an early Christmas with her family
- quitting smoking
- I've almost finished my Christmas shopping early for the first time in years (bless eBay!)
- I got a haircut and everyone has been saying how much more masculine it makes me look

Failures:
- I have lost a lot of my friends recently
- I'm having trouble juggling my social life with the friends that are left
- I don't really get out of the house enough
- I've been slack with my dieting
- I need to look harder for employment

This makes me realize how awful I am at getting things done.

Successes:

- started to finally do something about starting T
- told my mom I need to go back on my meds
- had a steady job for a little over 2 months
- started saving money
- started trying to live full time as Cole

Failures:

- things have been getting even worse between me and my mom
- haven't been consistent by which name I go by
- moving out date was pushed way back
- drinking/smoking/doing other drugs WAY more often because of my worsening depression

To the guys trying to quit smoking, have you tried one of the ecigs ? I've got one and I love it honestly.

hrm...starting from around a year and a half ago when I finally realized I was trans.

Successes:
-Came out to 99% of the people I know and care about.
-Now have a middle name, thanks to my mom.
-Lost 40 lbs (combination of eating better, being a lot more active and sporadically starving myself)
-Stopped resorting to cutting everytime ->-bleeped-<- got bad
-Have all but quit drinking
-grew a metaphorical pair and started telling people off when I needed to
-Now use only the mes room, and have no anxiety about it
-have a decent soul patch that I'm attached to
-Have talked, in depth, about being trans with a lot of my family
-Have gotten most of my family to switch to preferred name, or at least be aware of how much I hate the 'other name'.
-Finally realized just how dedicated and amazing Ben really is.

Failures:
-still haven't told my dad, still don't know if I can.
-dad seemingly rubs that name in my face every chance he gets
-don't have a job because of reasons I will not go into on here
-Have gotten a lot more aggressive and violent, mostly towards Julie
-she still calls me a girl occasionally, for some reason
-Now have to shower exclusivley in the dark
-Incredibly obsessed about my weight
-Have, at times, become incredibly antisocial and avoiding everyone.
-Tried to kill myself three times in the past year and a half

Successes:
-Graduated from college
-100% acceptance ratio from the people I've come out to
-Learned how to lead for the dance types I do
-Realized that there actually is something wrong and that I'm not just crazy
-Started working out seriously
-No longer feel a need to hurt myself

Failures:
-Still not completely comfortable with my gender identity
-Finding a job and my own place
-Getting ready for and applying to pharmacy school
-Coming out to parents
-Getting people to use the right name/pronouns

Successes:

- Name change in process
- Have conquered my binder
- Finding more classy clothes
- Work is accepting of pending name change
- Friends have my back
- Helping another FTM brother with his process

Failures:

- Mom's depression about losing her "little girl"
- Having to hide it from brother

i just had an epic fail.
i was putting on my binder, my phone rang.
i went to get it forgetting my arms where still over my head. reached for the phone and knocked over a cup that landed on my foot.

jumped back in suprise answered the phone saying hello. and my freind asking me whats wrong just as i slipped on the coffee on the tiles.

my feet fly up and my phone lands on my chest. still asking are you ok. im on the floor with one arm out of my binder looking like a wounded three legged dog. in an akward yoga like position getting up. when my other freind walks in looks at me picks up my phone and starts talking to my other mate. looking at me and saying.

rays busy. trying to be a fish.

to my horror i look down and see my binders made a odd bulge on my chest and i still have an arm locked behind my back. and worst of all. im covered in coffee. take a step and fall over again. my freind finishes talking on the phone.

while im laying there dazed. he gets a cloth and says dont worry stingray i will put you back in water. picks me up n puts me into the tub drags my binder of n leaves me sitting there gapping.

hes a brilliant freind, he didnt laugh at all but his comments just made that fail into a memory.

Succes;
people noticing changing in my voice
my cheast getting better (as in breathing)
being wrotted mr, on airplane ticket
getting top surgery soon
got Injection

failures;
got hit on by perv guys (who probebly thinks im a girl)
no money no job
a transgender hospital is closing down near me ( =( not exactly my failure but still)
testorone makes me extremly perverted at times, which drives me nuts.

Quote from: vik2ray on November 25, 2011, 02:45:05 AM
i just had an epic fail.
i was putting on my binder, my phone rang.
i went to get it forgetting my arms where still over my head. reached for the phone and knocked over a cup that landed on my foot.

jumped back in suprise answered the phone saying hello. and my freind asking me whats wrong just as i slipped on the coffee on the tiles.

my feet fly up and my phone lands on my chest. still asking are you ok. im on the floor with one arm out of my binder looking like a wounded three legged dog. in an akward yoga like position getting up. when my other freind walks in looks at me picks up my phone and starts talking to my other mate. looking at me and saying.

rays busy. trying to be a fish.

to my horror i look down and see my binders made a odd bulge on my chest and i still have an arm locked behind my back. and worst of all. im covered in coffee. take a step and fall over again. my freind finishes talking on the phone.

while im laying there dazed. he gets a cloth and says dont worry stingray i will put you back in water. picks me up n puts me into the tub drags my binder of n leaves me sitting there gapping.

hes a brilliant freind, he didnt laugh at all but his comments just made that fail into a memory.

This is such a yay story.

Success:
- I started HRT over two months ago
  -I've had significant muscle gains
   -I'm starting to get facial hair
   - My voice has dropped significantly
    -I'm working on changing my name legally
     -I'm starting to like myself more
    - I can still sing fairly well

   Failure:
-I lost my hat at another college's party recently
- I still need to get a job
- I've been procrastinating a lot recently
- I had an anxiety attack related to my dysphoria because my ex was being an ass
- I had to block my first cellphone number recently
-I just got the most inappropriate message from my cousin, so I'm hoping someone else sent it on his account
- I no longer have any control over my libido (this isn't all bad, but it's really distracting...)

Successes
My second family (my friends) totally accept me for who I am
I'm starting to get facial hair
On Friday I graduate from college with a Bachelor's degree in Information technology
January I start my Master's Program
My dad accepts me and calls me by Troy
My brother-in-law and sister-in-law accept me for who I am

Failures
The rest of my family does not accept me and calls me by my female name (Yuk!)
have no funds for top surgery
Can't find a job

Troy

successes:

1) well, i'm still alive ... that's always a nice thing
2) have been working out consistently for a year now and can notice some changes


fails:
1) still haven't hit on a nutritional plan that actually works for me