I am at a place where i would like to re-start my career.  The big problem I have is the extreme body dysphoria.  I have been trying, for years, to save money for the bottom surgery I need.  I know most transmen, once they have chest surgery, can move on.  Not so for me.  And, the big problem I have in using the male restroom, is, it reminds me, too much, of the body I do not want.  And to work 8-10 hours a day, without using a restroom.  Not sure if I can do that.  And it is getting me to a place where, I just want to give up.  Just wondering if anyone else deals with the extremes of transitioning? 

we all transition and take all the crap from the great unwashed public that delights in telling us we are perverts/freaks/queers etc until eventually we can go one full day without crap.

as for going to toilet and being unable to stand to pee you'll have to get by with sitting and no-one will know any better about you being trans.
realistically if you don't fill up with coffee or pop you'll only need the toilet three times between leaving home and getting back after work.

what are you going to do if you don't transition?

well, what about that STP?
If you have one it makes it slightly better but there's still the chance of it failing on you (like it did today at work, it was horrible)
its also really rewarding to go into the mens room and pee standing up with other guys, it gives you more man cred lol
I'm pre-op, pre-t by the way, you may have it easier