i noticed some new dysphoria quite recently that's just started. it's related to name. so, i do live fulltime, but as it stands, my name is still legally the male one. i am within the process of getting it legally changed, but i am a very catastrophic anxious person. i worry about the worst things happening. i worry about something completely outlandish but emotionally attached like my transition failing, and having to detransition then go through the hard cold process of transition again. that would be a nightmare. i am recently obsessing over the fact that "oh, my name isn't legal, so it musn't be traditionally valid." i then go into one of thos identity questioning crisis. does anyone else notice that as they progress through transition, dysphoria moves into other places?

*DISCLAIMER*
This is in no way meant to be insulting or degrading.  I also have anxiety issues and do actually take these medicines.  I am not saying you are crazy go take this knock out drug.

Have you talked to a medical doctor about your anxiety?  Yes they will prescribe some form of tranquilizer drug, but I suspect you would also get a prescription for an anti-depressant.  The AD actually helps with the anxiety after it kicks in.  Of course that does take several weeks and you may need to adjust your dosage so don't expect an immediate miracle.  Some people don't like the valium class drugs and feel they aren't worth the trade off, but with an AD in addition to them I went from needing 5mg around 4-5 times a week to rarely taking them (in the last 4 weeks I have taken 1 (for a family Thanksgiving dinner where I was constantly misgendered and misnamed)).  Of course my life has progressed since then, but the thing about my anxiety before is that even when X got better then it was Y that made me anxious (just as you are describing).  And yes I have continued therapy sessions since then, but I truly believe that the AD has helped minimize the need for the stronger anxiety drugs.

i've been on anti depressant drugs for years now. i'm on effexor and zoloft. both are supposed to have the antidepressant effect and i take them for anxiety issues as well, but it doesn't necessarily work. there's somem work i have to do on my own. the secretaries for the psychiatrist i go to were told that my name is changed, but they chose not to listen when calling the house. i am pissed off at them for it, but my mom just says they have all these records and blah blah blah. that's my current anger inducer. i have those frequently.

I too have this issue. I have tried effexor. wellbutrin, paxil, prozac, celexa, and I think a couple others in there..the xanax helps, though I don't take it any longer..but what seemed to help me the most was buspirone.
I had never heard of it before. So i did a little research..


5-HT1A receptor agonists like buspirone[14] and flesinoxan[15] show efficacy in relieving anxiety[16] and depression,[17] and buspirone and tandospirone are currently approved for these indications in various parts of the world. Others such as gepirone,[18] flesinoxan,[15] flibanserin,[19] and PRX-00023[20] have also been investigated, though none have been fully developed and approved as of yet. Some of the atypical antipsychotics like aripiprazole[21] are also partial agonists at the 5-HT1A receptor and are sometimes used in low doses as augmentations to standard antidepressants like the selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs).




5-HT1A receptor activation induces the secretion of various hormones including cortisol, corticosterone, adrenocorticotropic hormone (ACTH), oxytocin, prolactin, growth hormone, and β-endorphin.[55][56][57][58] The receptor does not affect vasopressin or renin secretion, unlike the 5-HT2 receptors.[55][56] It has been suggested that oxytocin release may contribute to the prosocial, antiaggressive or serenic, and anxiolytic properties observed upon activation of the receptor.[25] β-Endorphin secretion likely contributes to antidepressant, anxiolytic, and analgesic effects.


Interesting part was how it may induce secretion of various hormones. Hence it makes me wonder in the case of being trans what exactly it did to make me feel better. It didn't cure my g.i.d by any means, but it did lessen the anxiety a considerable amount, just as hrt did.

  I don't have being still being called by my male pronouns a problem yet.  But the with the depression I had before HRT, I was treated with Zoloft, Efflexor, Serzone, and Remeron.  None of those worked too well.  The HRT did good where the those antidepressants were supposed to do.  I ordered a new blood test on Monday at my Dr's office.  My dysphoria is up and the beard hair is growing at the previous rate, the skin less soft and the testes have grown the past 3 months since my Dr. had quartered my Spiro dosage.  I am a little testy, sorry, pun unintended.
  Joelene