So I just sat...for a few hours...with a blank blog entry. My intent and hope was to write about being bigender and the mental gymnastics...and some of the processing and where I'm at. That blog never got wrote. I don't know how to explain it. I don't know how to put it into words. I guess. I was nervous about sounding odd, strange or crazy. I was trying to push through that but even still...I just didn't really have the words...

Frustrating.

Hi Sevan,

That's interesting as I have kept a journal over the years about me.

No one has read it. The opening page says
" This is the journal of Cindy. A woman born into the body of a guy. It is truthful and scary. In this journal I tell no lies.
If upon my death this is found red and weep. Or throw up."

I then started with the day I remember knowing I was a girl. Writing it has been very cathartic. 

Hugs and Good Luck with yours.

Love to Cynthia as well

Cindy

*hugs*

I think I understand. I try to write about myself sometimes, and rarely come up with anything. I have a tumblr that I made for writing in, and it's basically empty. I either just can't find words, or am afraid of what it might sound like.

Sounds like a case of writer's block.

I keep a journal and I write in it infrequently. Most of the things i write about come at completely random times with completely random thoughts, and if i don't scribble the thoughts down right away i can't recapture them later. It is interesting to read earlier journal entries and see what i was thinking back then; those thoughts would be lost otherwise.

I just write/make journals and then never end up keeping them. =/ You're doing better than I am in that department at least, hehe.

Sometimes the words of a language aren't enough to express your feelings.

Quote from: annette on December 12, 2011, 06:01:07 AM
Sometimes the words of a language aren't enough to express your feelings.

I've often thought that, and that is why we paint, sculpt, sing, whatever.

Why do we?

What is the urge to communicate across ideas?

Humans communicate against a massive set of diverse thoughts, I used to think that communication would destroy us. but it may have saved us.

Quote from: annette on December 12, 2011, 06:01:07 AM
Sometimes the words of a language aren't enough to express your feelings.

Especially when the language doesn't contain words or concepts such as non binary gender. This quote from Audre Lorde "The Master's Tools Will Never Dismantle the Master's House" has always resonated for me.

Z

I've often done the same when trying to write about gender and how I experience it.  Even here.

But sometimes I have written things that clarify for me.  Even 20 years ago when I was pretty clueless about gender, I still wrote that I had a sort of "dark lady" in my personality that was separate but inseparable from the male aspects of myself.  Not the most accurate or even the most poetic way to plut it, but the words sufficed to remind me.