I am 22 years old and had my SRS a year ago, and I have been in a horrible whirlwind of PMS symptoms ever since my surgery to find my balance of hormones. I am so happy to have had the surgery and I am so pleased with my life, but I don't feel happy. I have no sex drive, I have swollen hands/feet, anxiety, poor metabolism, and the worst, I feel like I don't have a soul and I am just a robot functioning through the day. This is not at all who I was or used to be and trust me, it has nothing to do with any sort of regrets or such. I completely pass and I am so happy to live out my life this young and post SRS as my true female self, but I just am not able to enjoy it like I should be able to. I have been seeing doctors and have been put through the ringer with adding progesterone and testosterone creams to see if it helps but they only seem to make things worse. I swear these doctors will be the end of me considering I have had such horrible side effects from what they prescribe me. I am now only taking oral estradiol pills and I know in my gut instinct that its what I should be on but im struggling so hard for the past year to find my right dosage and method of taking it.

Ideally I need to help/advice from someone post srs who is young and is hormonally balanced. I am begging for help and I would appreciate it if people could message me so I can find out what is going on here and what I need to adjust. I want to feel that life magic so to speak where you can't wake up to start your day and be a social butterfly.

Please message me privately if you have some really pertinent information we can discuss through email.  Thank you my sisters <3

Can't help with the SRS stuff, but this:

QuoteI feel like I don't have a soul and I am just a robot functioning through the day.

...is how I felt when my ARNP put me on a particular anti-depressant. (I don't recall what it was now). I took it for about 4 days, then called and said I felt "like a placeholder--I'm not myself, I'm just holding the body for when "I" get back."

She immediately took me off the a-d's and prescribed something else (lithium, iirc).

Point is, sounds like something is seriously out of whack. Maybe hormones, maybe something else.

eta: I tried taking androderm (helps with testosterone levels), but can't take it for more than 2-3 days...it feels just like poison to me.

Read my PM hon, and I hope for you to get well soon.

Axélle

The lack of sex drive, fatigue, and poor metabolism may be due to a lack of testosterone. Even genetic cis-gendered women have a low level of t in their system. You may want to have your testosterone level checked. Some post-op friends of mine tack t (albeit in very low dosages) to maintain and balance some of the issues you are having trouble with. Also, any sort of creams (estrogen, testosterone, et al) are a waste of money and a poor substitute for oral or injectables. They are no where near as potent or effective.

You actually need to take time and let your little girl grow up. If you go from an adult male body to an adult female body without allowing time for your little girl to grow you surely will feel like a robot. It took time for you to get here and it will take time for you to grow into your new body.. Its not a toy to test out like new equipment. Let what a female feels to take over. Thats where the feeling for love and respect for another will excite your body. Its not about JUST DOING IT.. well for some raw people it might be.. Let the mind stimulate the hypothalamus to stimulate the pituitary to creat coitercoisteroids to stimulate the adrenals to stimulate the cowpers gland to stimulate the erectile tissue because of a true feeling for someone not from thoughts of sex..

.. The old male body is gone there is not hot quick sex.. its not about that.. you left that.. you have to grow over time from a young girl into a woman for that to happen and that takes yrs to grow from a female into a woman.. relax.. go slow .. use your mind and DO NOT think of sex... thats what men do.. think of finding love and do not play with yourself.. let your dream world give you natural wet dreams and in time your new female you body will be acting normal like an average female and one day you will grow up to be a woman.. then you can be much more sexual with your partner.. your different now.. your body is different... connect with the true new you.. hgs love Danielle

PS: I am in my 14th yr being post op so for me i am now just a teen and all works fine below.. its nothing like before..