Been feeling down all day,, yay for mood swings. I kinda wanted to get a few opinions if ive changed much from beginning to now on my transition...
this is a pic a week after i started hormones all shaved and everything... boy mode...

and me dressed a couple days later went out to a gay club...

and this is me now


And i do apologize for the post, Just feel like i wanna talk to someone u know? i spend everyday alone accept when the fiance is off from work...

As a boy you looked like a FTM in my opinion, you're results are incredible and inspiring! If only I had your cheekbones.

I think you have wonderful talent for makeup and look terrific. Its ok to feel alone, but I hope you realize that you aren't alone.

Huggs

Emily

Wow. *awfully jelous*

Really, though, you look fantastic.

OMG You are gorgeous!!! How old are you?!? 

Why do you spend every day alone? You need to make friends! Get out of the house... go out to eat and hang out... even play some online games and chat with people...

that stuff never works for me. ive tried to have friends even tried to make dates to hang out and have a lunch when i had a job... All of them ignore me. im 25 btw, anyone i talk to that im close to are very far away....


I have a question, how do you make friends? every so called friend ive had close by i had to make an effort to try to keep... they would never talk to me i would have to seek them out...

Just feel like i wanna talk to someone u know? i spend everyday alone

I spend most of my time alone, there isn't much for anyone to relate to where I live    I am very thankful for the little time I can spend with the few folks I consider friends

Quote from: sictransitkira on December 11, 2011, 09:39:51 PM
As a boy you looked like a FTM in my opinion, you're results are incredible and inspiring! If only I had your cheekbones.

No kidding, +1 on that... LOL... But I do have the cheekbones 


I think you are progressing nicely    Wish I would have transitioned at your age

ya i do like my alone times.... but after i started hormones i like being surrounded by ppl. So i can talk hang out do fun stuff whether it be walk around the mall or maybe have a lunch with a friend.... these are things ive never done. I am missing out on alot.
I think today is a pms day... i wanna get into bed with a stick of cookie dough and a spoon... mmmm.

Quote from: Natalie <3 on December 12, 2011, 01:11:40 AM
i wanna get into bed with a stick of cookie dough and a spoon... mmmm.

  Yeah i can totally relate to that! lol

  Some days are better then others but you just gotta pick yourself back up, dust yourself off and keep on truckin!   

hormones making you sociable is nothing new.

what sort of free activities are available for volunteering in charity shelters etc , education, sports etc in your town?

interacting with people lets you hone your public persona.

you make a lovely woman.

Quote from: Natalie <3 on December 12, 2011, 12:19:27 AM
that stuff never works for me. ive tried to have friends even tried to make dates to hang out and have a lunch when i had a job... All of them ignore me. im 25 btw, anyone i talk to that im close to are very far away....


I have a question, how do you make friends? every so called friend ive had close by i had to make an effort to try to keep... they would never talk to me i would have to seek them out...

well you know how I feel about your looks! But I'm stuck in the same boat about friends!  If you ever figure out how to make,keep and not seek, let me know! Please! It sucks when you have to make an effort and seek people to have a friend. I know someone that goes far and beyond to have a friend, even does sexual favors, well actually more than that, to keep a friend, gosh I hope I'm never that lonely. Sorry totally went left field. Anyways you can always message me! I'm always lonely and available.

Ya I know how that goes.... I'm starting to get over how my life was being molested and beatin for most of my life. I would go out of my way to try to keep friends no matter what i had to do. Usually they were my friends because they could get whatever they wanted... Growing up I would watch Friends the tv show. Why cant i have friends like that? I want a pheobe of my own =(.

Quote from: Natalie <3 on December 12, 2011, 12:19:27 AM
they would never talk to me i would have to seek them out...

I've run into that problem a lot. I have few actual friends even though I know a lot of people and talk to a lot of people everyday. Most of my real friends are older couples that seem to have similar issues with trying to keep friends as well and ones I have known for quite a long time for the most part. But then I'm wary of bringing many into my private life as I've have bad experiences with supposed friends. 

Getting a dog has helped me.

I think cheap beer from supermarkets and modern life centres around television and its stopped most socialising so no-one has proper friends these days.
I live in apartmnet block and look out onto car park and I see people go tto work and come home but very few go out at other time or have visitors.  and they aren't all as po as me.   

When i was working i would work 8 hrs a day... most days ill be too tired to go out and do whatever...

Quote from: Natalie <3 on December 12, 2011, 12:30:39 PM
When i was working i would work 8 hrs a day... most days ill be too tired to go out and do whatever...

I'm like that right now.  Working at Macy's at least 5 days a week, trying to save up money for eventual FFS.

Before hormones... I was very anti-social. The year before I started I actually made a couple friends... but CONSTANTLY avoided them and never really hung out.

After hormones, I turned around and started really enjoying doing things with people (instead of it just pulling me away from things I would rather be doing).

QuoteI have a question, how do you make friends? every so called friend ive had close by i had to make an effort to try to keep... they would never talk to me i would have to seek them out...

Well, making friends is actually pretty easy Basically... say hello (people new to town make great pickins too haha, since they need friends).

I make friends in 2 ways.

1) People at work / school I just chat with... and, after work or class, just an easy invite of "hay, want to go grab some food?" is a great way to start friendship (or, just hang out with people). After that, you start going out more... and eventually start hanging out at eachothers houses... and... tada friends.

2) Facebook! I cyber-bug people ALLLLLL the time. When I see someone that I think would be fun to be friends with ... I send an invite (like if i see something they post on a co-workers wall or something that I like). If they accept, then I start sending "Hey, hows it going" type things when I see them online. I generally joke around a lot online and just like chatting... so get to know strangers When they seem like they would be fun to hang out with (and if they live close) I invite them to do something.

Actually, there is a couple (with a few kids) moving here soon that I met online (from the above method). Even though we haven't even met, we are already friends So when they get to town we will definitely have dinner or do something (yayyy).

And, of course, friends have their own friends...and you get to know them...and some become your friends... and... well... yup, just social.

I have actually been having a little trouble balacing the new social aspect of life. Sometimes I spend too much time hanging out and don't get things I need done But, overall, it is a lot of fun getting to know new people

Babe you are absolutely drop dead gorgeous! Wow!

so my bf had taken me out to buy a few things to make me feel better... I ended up stopping in earie they are having a sell right now 40% off everything... The bra i wanted was the new drew the double push up... The girl there said let me tell you something but keep it a secret.... we have select drews in clearance... so i bought a bra that was 50 for 23 dollars yay!!! Oh they didnt have 34 A like i usually wear. So i tried a 34 B and guess what it fits .... OMG im a B lol.