well im not gunna make yet another thread about my parts down their. this is mostly about being pre-T and getting horny. ok uh i dnt wanna sound crazy but is it weird tht i jack off with my packer? evry time i do i feel like a freak even tho its better than jus sitting ther and pretending 2 hav a dick. idk im rly frustrated not b able 2 hav a real dick and get hard and all tht. wow this is wayyyyy TMI but i had to get it off my chest (manly chest) and ask the question. i hope u person readin this isnt too freaked out by me....

Not weird at all. I did that when I was on cam with my partner, and then usually I'd touch myself afterwards (like the actual downstairs) just to get to orgasm. But a lot of it was just touching the packer. It got me excited enough to finish anyway.

im glad im not the only one. i always felt like a weirdo jackin off wit my packer even tho its good enough for me. thanks for replying

You're not alone - won't go into details, but I use my playing cock, not the packer.

Yeah, I wouldn't worry about it.  You're definitely not alone.

nah i do that too, lol. it's fine.
but getting horny pre-T imo is better than when you're on T because it happens way less frequently.  I wish I could get rid of my sex drive completely so I wouldn't have the constant reminder of my condition and the feelings that go along with it. Nothing upsets, depresses and enrages me more than remembering the fact I was born this way.

I love being horny, though soon maybe I'll amend that opinion. Hormones change things.

I do recognize that I am a biological mistake, and I feel bad about that, and inadequate, but I honestly don't know a whole lot of ways to make the best of this bad situation. So I pretend I have a normal cock sometimes, and I use any toys, tools, positions, people, or imaginative devices I happen to have available to me when I'm aroused.

It's not all bad. I really wish I could get hard, really don't know how to ever be okay with what I've got, but I think I still get more pleasure and joy out of this human form than a lot of cisguys do out of theirs.

It is what it is. Jack off with the dick you've got, if you like it.