Hello everybody! I'm new so thought I'd introduce myself.
My gender issues have rendered me androgynous, it seems. I think it's best for me to remain neutral after decades of frustration, dissatisfaction, and two divorces. I have very few sexual feelings any more, and still don't feel I quite fit in as a female...and I'd be a really weird man at this point! However, I felt completely male when I was a little kid and if I'd been able to grow into a man I'm sure I would have had a happier life.
I'm not really a "butch" female but feel most comfy in my old bluejeans, no makeup, and wild, curly hair. I worked at being a feminine female for many years of my life but in the long run, it hasn't worked very well for me. When I'm in a group of regular women, it often doesn't seem that we're members of the same species!
So here I am on the verge of my 65th birthday, still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.