Hey everyone, sorry I disappeared for a while without saying anything. I think the last time I posted I asked for help, and got a lot of wonderful responses, and then didn't reply, so sorry and I appreciate it all.
I've been dealing with a lot of stuff, and that's why I haven't really been around, and it's why I'm posting now.
I need help, and I think being in a hospital (or intensive outpatient care while staying on the "recovery campus") would probably be hugely beneficial to me, even though I've had horrible experiences with hospitals, and they scare me. The problem is I don't have health insurance atm.
I've started researching health insurance plans, but I thought I'd ask here in case anyone has any advice. All I really need is something that would cover most of a stay in a psychiatric hospital without being really expensive, but if there are any companies that are transgender friendly, that would be a huge plus. Does anyone have any suggestions or advice? Thanks!
And here's a story to prove that there are kind people in the world. Last night around 3am I was in my car in a grocery store parking lot, drunk (yes, that's part of the reason I need help; I know I could kill someone drunk driving, and it's really really really scary and upsetting to me that I did that) and binge eating candy bars and cookies. A random girl about my age came by the car and asked if I needed help. I tried to say I was fine at first, but I ended up letting her talk with me while I drank the water that she bought for me. She was worried about me because she thought I looked emaciated (this surprised me because I gained 10 pounds in the last two months) and she used to have an eating disorder as well. She was completely supportive of me when I told her I'm trans, we talked until about 5am, and it convinced me to get help this time. And I really need help, so I'm working on getting it.