After testing the waters a few years ago I would have to walk away from everything, a 23 year marriage, 8 grandchildren, home, work OH and of course the nasty junk hanging between my legs

Quote from: R&T-Place on January 07, 2012, 05:21:12 PM
Its just one huge reason so many people on this forum can't stand me, and it's because more than most people, I don't make mistakes and I have such an open playing field.

Actually, I wouldn't say people here can't stand you. It probably would be more accurate to say many people here do not trust what you have to say because you have lied many times about your past and now it's like crying wolf. We have no idea when you're lying or telling the truth.

You have been a plastic surgery consultant ( https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,101898.msg753923.html#msg753923 ), a public speaker for stealth transitioning, an actor, author, media host, musician, an activist ( https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,102000.msg757201.html#msg757201 ), and someone who was offered a million dollars to be in movies ( https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,102943.msg766079.html#msg766079  ).

So, as you can see, it isn't because people do not like you as a personal issue...it's just that you have dug yourself so deep in lies that no one can really take your word on anything as serious.

I think you need to repair your image here first rather than thinking people "don't like you" because you do everything so perfectly.

Quote from: R&T-Place on January 07, 2012, 05:21:12 PM
Personally, I find that old-time phrases like "Can't have your cake and eat it too." are absolutely meaningless. If I wanted to, I could bake a cake, eat half of it, save half of it, do whatever I want to with it; it's my cake and I live in America, which is thankfully a country that permits me to have a hayday with whatever cake I bake. Same with transitioning; I have never made a mistake concerning Transitioning, I've never caused someone to pop out a child, I've never been married, I've never broken up with someone, I've never gotten into debt or got into trouble with the law, never joined the military, haven't chosen an incorrect school path...it's because literally, I have the ability to plan ahead more than all the people who make these mistakes and regret them later, despite me having gone through just as much emotional abuse and pressure to conform as anyone else. I literally have the free range to do whatever I want to with my life (with the exception of affording it all), and I plan on doing just that without a single negative - if any negatives happen, it'll be because someone else broke the law against me and I'll be able to sue them (sadly, it hasn't been that easy with two doctors who have maimed my face while drunk during FFS procedures because our laws protect doctors like crazy, but oh well.)

Its just one huge reason so many people on this forum can't stand me, and it's because more than most people, I don't make mistakes and I have such an open playing field. So many people internalize the guilt from divorcing a wife or abandoning a child, and then put that negativity on my intentions to have a few facial surgeries and get put on hormones, just because it'll add something positive to my life, a life that someone else will never achieve after years of marriage, divorce, religion, debt, military, masculine aging, confusing therapy, or whatever. It's more than this entire forum, my family, my friends, the entire world is against me, I've never had one person, in my entire life, who, concerning anything, has said "I support you on that and I'm going to help you in whatever way I can." Wether its parents paying for college, a best friend helping out a roommate, a dead grandma giving someone a car, an uncle giving their nephew a job, I've never had any of that, and it's because either A. I was born into a really unlucky family situation, and B. So many people are jealous of how I don't make mistakes that are designed to hold me back, and they literally want me to conform to what mistakes they've made because their happiness is based on denial. However, I plan on having my cake, eating it, saving some for later, eating again, pooping it out, and continue to bake cakes for the rest of my life. I'm not conforming to anyone's old fashioned beliefs and I'm not going to have any prices to pay.

Kia Ora R&T

James Joyce once wrote  "Mistakes are the portals of discovery !"

I can only wish you well on your journey of self 'discovery' !

Metta Zenda

Never really thought about it but I guess I'm willing to lose the comfort I have with my family.  I don't think I'll lose them completely ( i hope not ), but I know things will never be the same.  I'm ready to lose a lot of my friends ( most are drug attics so no big deal there i guess, thought kind of sad ).  I'm also willing to give up the comfort I had as a male ( always felt i was somewhat attractive, but unlikely to carry over into womanhood XD).