As I search to understand my own TG issues I chat with many people off line and our discussions can be rather intimate. One special GG friend (she gave me permission to print it) wrote me the following paragraph that I found fascinating:
"My Significant Other has not begun hormones yet. Trust me I can't wait for her to have breasts >
. Just the process of coming out a little at a time has softened her. She is a beautiful "man" but I believe will be an even more beautiful woman. Gawd I love her."
That is a wonderful statement! That creates so many emotions! It is caring and sensitive and frankly quite erotic especially if you happen to like women.
I am on such a guilt trip that I do everything in secret.
When I read the above quote from my GG friend I then realized I had shut down my cross gender feelings for forty years. All the physical and mental changes I have recently seen in myself were witnessed from "The Mind of a Twelve Year Old Girl." They felt good and seemed right.
It would have been nice to share those feeling with someone you love instead of being alone. My emotions seem very extreme.
My mind is asking...Where do I shop?....What do I wear?...How should I look? They all seem like questions from "The Mind of a Twelve Year Old Girl."
My GG's statement is radical, unconventional and marvelous! Just as we have the power to alienate, we also have the power to unlock the mind of a twelve year old girl that has been trapped for decades and allow her to be greeted by a friend. That is a very special GG friend!
Wendy
